a maiden in distress; an ancient soul trapped in modern day chaos

There are no perfect fathers - Thai Life Insurance

2011-08-18T17:40:00.003+08:00

Dah lama gila aku tak post anything. Tapi hari ni, lain. Hari ni bukan Father's Day or anything. Tapi hari ni ialah hari aku jumpa video kat atas ni. Aku tau aku bukan anak yang paling baik, and sebab tu lah aku menangis gila2 lepas tengok video ni and disebabkan video ni jugaklah aku nak menulis dalam blog ni balik. 'There are no perfect fathers' tapi ayah yang kita ada tu lah kita kene hargai.

Mungkin ada yang pernah terkasar bahasa atau merajuk atau anything dengan parents korang. Nasihat aku, mintak maaf sebelum terlambat.. AKU SANGGUP BERGADAI SEMUA HARTA DUNIA SEMATA MATA NAK AYAH, MACAM YANG KORANG ADA SEKARANG.

Hari terakhir aku jumpa ayah aku, 28/9/20 and time somewhere dalam pukul 11 malam. Time tu pukul 8pm, ayah aku mengadu sakit tekak and rasa tulang ikan yang dia makan siang tadi tersekat. Dia nak pergi klinik and aku tak ingat ape yang jadi malam tu, tapi aku marah kan ayah aku. And benda yang aku paling regret sampai sekarang, is what happen at that time. Aku merajuk. Aku lari dalam bilik and aku hempas pintu bilik aku. Ape perasaan korang bila 3 jam lepas tu ayah korang meninggal? Aku memang sempat mintak maaf and ada kat sisi ayah aku buat kali terakhir, tapi kalau aku boleh ulang balik tanggal 28/9/2011 tu, aku akan bagitau ayah aku betapa aku sayang kat dia and betapa aku bersyukur aku dilahirkan sebagai anak dia.. And aku tanak biar dia kecik hati walau sebesar zarah pun..

Ayah aku bukan macam ayah korang, pakai smart smart, kerja gaji besar. Ayah aku kerja kutip sampah je dengan alam flora. Tapi aku tak pernah tutup hidung waktu ayah ambik aku lepas balik sekolah dalam uniform dia. Dia ayah aku, aku sayang dia walau ape pun kerja dia. Dia mungkin tukang ambik sampah, tapi dia akan belikan suratkhabar SETIAP HARI untuk anak anak dia baca sebab dia pernah cakap, "ayah tanak orang cakap anak pengutip sampah ni bodoh". Dia nak kitorang adik beradik angkat tangan dalam kelas and tahu pasal isu semasa.

Jujurnya, lepas almost 7 tahun ayah kau dah takde, kau akan get over perasaan sedih tu. Tapi aku download video ni untuk remind aku setiap masa, that even if ayah aku dah meninggal, dia still hidup kat hati aku... Even sampai sekarang if aku termimpi pasal dia, aku akan menangis pasal rindu sangat sangat.

Korang janji eh, jangan jadi macam aku :'). Pergi call parents korang, mintak maaf, mintak ampun. Jangan pernah sekali pun bagi air mata diorang tumpah. Dari habiskan kredit kat pakwe or makwe, tak salah kalau korang pun habiskan equal amount untuk call parents korang kan? (This is a reminder for me too :) ).

Oklah, enough for today. Tak tau lah if puasa aku dah makruh pasal menangis tengok video tadi ke tak. Tu rahsia Allah. Assalamualaikum.

- I love you both, Md Nor bin Abu Bakar and Rossini binti Ismail <3 -

*Tolong sedekahkan Al-Fatihah ye :). Thanks in advance.

pfttt

2011-01-10T12:45:00.001+08:00

takyah la nak countdown countdown result keluar bila. tau lah gempak. lek lek dah la. menggelabah!

lagu lagu saya! :D

2011-01-08T18:31:00.002+08:00

setiap malam aku akan dengar lagu dalam phone aku. phone aku sekarang tak banyak pun lagu. ade dalam 50 je. tu pun dah banyak delete. and these songs yang termasuk dalam list aku ni, aku boleh cakap agak special la for the moment :). ade lagi certain certain lagu yang pernah bawak impak dan kesan masa aku dengar, tapi ade yang aku tak letak dalam phone. hee. lagu lagu ni lah yang aku dengar setiap malam and buat aku tidur lena and not to mention, smiling :D. tapi caution! lagu lagu ni banyak yang jiwang, hehe, so sorry pasal my current mood memang untuk lag lagu macam ni kot. ada antara lagu ni, my beloved friends yang kenalkan, contohnye, faiqah, chan and fiq. hehe. kalau korang ade minat antara lagu lagu ni jugak, ataupun korang ade lagu yang best untuk dishare, lemme know! :D so, here you go:

MOST OF THE SONGS, LAGU LAGU LAMA, TAPI EVERGREEN BAGI AKU. :D

1. 150 juta - Fynn Jamal

2. Baby, I'm yours - Arctic Monkeys

3. Back to December - Taylor Swift

4. Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie

5. I Miss You - Blink 182

6. Catch Me - Demi Lovato

7. Clumsy - Fergie

8. Fallin' for You - Colbie Caillat

9. Crazier - Taylor Swift

10. Everytime We Touch - Cascada

11. Firework - Katy Perry

12. Fly Me Away - Annie Little

13. Geu Deh Ji Geum - OST Full House

14. Good Girl Gone Bad - Rihanna

15. Macy's Day Parade - Green Day

16. Halo - Beyonce Knowles

17. Hate That I Love You - Rihanna ft. Ne-Yo

18. Hoot - SNSD

19. Ku Mahu Kau Tahu - Hujan

20. I Miss You - Avril Lavigne

21. I Still Believe - Mariah Carey

22. I Wish I Was Someone Better - Blood Red Shoes

23. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

24. The Remedy - Jason Mraz

25. If It Kills Me (casa nova session) - Jason Mraz

26. Gravity - Sara Bareilles

27. Issues - The Saturdays

28. Getting High on The Down Low - NOFX

29. Take it Off - Ke$ha

30. Kissing You - Miranda Cosgrove

31. Hero - Mariah Carey

32. Mistake - SNSD

33. I Love You Anyway - Mocca

34. Lucky Man - Mocca

35. I Remember - Mocca

36. Mad - Ne-Yo

37. Run Devil Run - SNSD

38. Run Devil Run - Ke$ha

39. Speak Now - Taylor Swift

40. Straightjacket Feeling - All American Rejects

41. Stuck Like Glue - Sugarland

42. Baby Girl - Sugarland

43. Stuck on You - Stacie Orrico

44. So Simple - Stacie Orrico

45. There's Gotta Be (More to Life) - Stacie Oricco

46. Mine - Taylor Swift

47. Te Amo - Rihanna

48. Linger - The Cranberries

49. Today Was a Fairytale - Taylor Swift

50. Way Back into Love - Hugh Grant ft. Haley Bennett

51. We R Who We R - Ke$ha

52. Without You - Jaclyn Victor ft. Same Same

53. Your Love is My Drug - Ke$ha

matahari dan 'pemiliknya'

2010-12-05T15:37:00.003+08:00

sorry kalau baru nak ulas pasal benda ni. agak ketinggalan, tapi nak jugak bagi komen pasal lawak antarabangsa ni. hoho. okay okay. korang mungkin dah baca berita ni dekat kosmo atau mana mana paper la kan. bagi yang taktau atau malas nak klik link yang dah dibagi tu, meh sini aku bagi brief info.

Angeles Duran, seorang wanita dari Sepanyol telah mengesahkan beliau ialah pemilik kepada matahari melalui pengesahan oleh jabatan notari awam tempatan di Sepanyol. Dia juga mengeluarkan kenyataan bahawa dia juga berkemungkinan mengenakan cas kepada sesiapa yang menggunakan matahari. Bayaran dari cas itu akan dibahagikan iaitu:

50%- goverment (kerajaan Sepanyol)

20%- tabung pencen nasional (macam KWSP versi diorang la)

10%- research (tak sure research berkaitan matahri sahaj ataupun tak)

10%- memberhentikan kadar kebuluran

10%- hak milik dia.

*dalam perjanjian antarabangsa, sesebuah negara tak boleh claim hak kepada matahari atau planet, tetapi TIDAK kepada individu.

okay. lawak? haha. itulah hakikatnya. manusia are getting ridiculous. waktu kecik kecik dulu, aku suka belajar chapter yang belakang belakang dalam buku sains yang ada topik pasal buruj, planet planet sampaikan dulu cita cita aku nak jadi ahli astronomi. so aku rasa macam seronok pulak bila ada cerita pasal penemuan planet baru, hasil kajian and observation saintis pasal keadaan surface bulan, dan yang paling baru, rupa matahari dalam jarak dekat. heh. dekat tak dekat la, dalam jarak 5000km.

tapi perempuan ni aku rasa tak lebih sekadar nak cetuskan kontroversi. haha.

1.macam mana dia nak kutip duit dari semua orang yang guna matahari dia ni?

2. dia pemilik matahari kan? bukan pemilik cahaya pun.

3. haha. kalau dia pemilik cahaya, so kita bolehlah saman dia pulak lepas ni kalau ada kes sunburn ke, matahari tak cukup panas sampai kain baju tak kering, matahari tak muncul time malam, matahari terlalu panas, kan kan?

4.kalau kita tak bayar fee matahari tu pun, apa dia boleh buat? tutup suis matahari? LOL

5. ntah ntah, ni semua plan kerajaan sepanyol. pasal negara tak boleh ada hak milik, so perempuan ni yang dipilih untuk jadi pemilik matahari bagi pihak diorang. yelahh, kalau ye la pun dia dapat kutip duit dari semua 'pengguna', apekejadah nak bagi portion yang agak banyak kat kerajaan? hahaha

p/s: jangan dilayan perempuan ni.

my sunshine;

aida.

raging

2010-12-04T04:11:00.002+08:00

ALERT: this post is not random (duh~) and i choose not to specify the name too. if you wanna guess, be my guest. and if you are in any way, hurt by this entry do tell me because i'm writing this to SOME people and afraid if you misunderstood about this.

1st case

you removed me from your friend list in facebook didn't you? like i don't know. i don't care miss. seriously. be it that you are my exschoolmate or what, you mess with me, you're gonna get it! as if i forgot who adds who. and truth to be told, i'm not proud to know you, at all. it's very funny to remember your so-called-principle of forbidding couple-ism during our school days. anti them so much aren't you? now please have a taste of your own medicine. its funny how you always despise the couples and always 'advising' them. your sarcastic words will always be remembered darl. and when the first time i knew about your current relationship, i'm quite surprised, but i don't really mind, REALLY. what the heck, it's normal for teens. and it turns out that your boy is someone i know make the story more interesting. i sincerely congrats you and be happy for you, but you decided to cover up the whole story, as if you're still the same saint we knew in school when in fact, you've been with him for quite some time. you said the relationship you're having with him in facebook is 'brother and sister'. i LOLed; hard. c'mon. and to make the matters worse, you decided to use my friends name; which i wanna inform you; IS A VERY BIG MISTAKE. you said that there are no fault done since my friend's relationship status are also in a relationship. hello, if it wasn't OBVIOUS, they are togeher. =__=.

embarrased when the whole thing revealed, you removed me. wow. i didn't see THAT coming. oh well, i don't think i lose anything though. you're embarassed; i get it. LOL.

but it is REALLY INTERESTING though when you're adding me back. why? haha. i laugh when i see your friend request. you still got the guts to do it don't you? haha. sorry, i'm not interested.

2nd case

you don't have to tell the WHOLE world how much your bf loves you. and please, your 'domestic quarrel' are not for everyone to see. you don't have any pride babe? sorry for being so harsh. but seriously. you fought? advise: don't write your status with your bf name telling him what he did wrong. you worried? advise: be cool, be patient, be positive. one FB MESSAGE is enough to let him know how much you're worried about him. a wallpost? what were you thinking? you do realize that your friends are going to read it, do you? zomg. it's like this whole time you two contacted through facebook 24/7. i believe you DO have phone right? you can text him all this while, but you choose such public medium to ask him where he was. omg. please hun, please. grow up! yes, i know it's your account, it's your status, you can write anything you want, but please, be rational. it's like you don't mind everyone to know the current ups and downs in your relationship.

though i hid you from my facebook homepage, but since my friends are commenting on your status, they will still show up. =___=. i wanna remove you, but apparently i'm still a nice person *LOL eventhough you did hurt me verbally before; but still, the act of removing is not nice and are taken to ONLY the person i don't make contact with and also some people who are mistakenly approved.

rage to the max;

aida.

hols! :D

2010-11-30T13:37:00.002+08:00

okay! exam dah habis. satu semester as an undergraduate student dah lepas. alhamdulillah! serius rasa ringan kepala. nak tengok movies, nak jalan jalan. ape pun, tetiba macam dah malas nak kerja. hoho. hari tu mangat sangat. tengok la. rehat 2, 3 hari dulu, lepas tu baru fikir. em. otak aku rasa macam berat je ni. nak layan spongebob squarepants sekejap. :D.

berehat rehat,

aida.

Teenage Dream! :)

2010-11-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

Teenage Dream! :)

Now, I ain't sayin' she a GOLD DIGGER!

2010-11-08T02:38:00.003+08:00

kadang kadang bagus kalau kita ni berfikiran jauh. tapi selalunya, akan rugikan kita jugak. sekarang ni aku SANGAT berfikiran jauh. otak aku dah imagine kehidupan aku untuk 4 minggu lagi. sekarang ni aku benci facebook. status semua kawan kawan, ready untuk balik, paper last. pergh. sangat menggangu emosi. haha. sekarang ni sangat dah tak sabar untuk berehat sehari dua, and then, carik duit! yeah yeah! ye. aku memang sangap dengan duit. tapi takpe. i'm busting my ass for it, bukannye aku gi buat benda tak baik. kan kan? HAHA. tolong lah. malas gila kot nak fikir pasal final.

final aku ade 4 paper je, walaupun aku amek 7 subjek sem ni.

subjek subjek final; academic writing, intro to material science, differential equation, statics & dynamics

subjek subjek takde final; sport science, intro to oil and gas industry (2 test), fundamentals of petroleum engineering (4 test. T.T)

agak rileks la sebenarnya pasal gap each paper jauh. cuma bila makin jauh, means that cuti pun lagi lambat la. hahaha. dayum. ok la.

p/s: belajar pandai pandai, keroje elok elok. dah kaya, boleh dapat semua yang kau nak. :D

p/s/s: in a nutshell, belajar la bersungguh sungguh untuk final ni, supaya dapat menjadi manusia yang kaya di masa hadapan.

kaya bukan dengan hasil MLM,

aida.

Dear Prime Minister of Malaysia,

2010-10-23T01:25:00.003+08:00

sedihnya, pemimpin negara tak nak dengar suara majoriti rakyat. kenapa nak bina menara 100 tingkat? hebat sangat ke ade menara tinggi tinggi?

tolong laa. kadar kemiskinan kat malaysia ni masih tinggi. elok 5 billion tu di bagi kepada rakyat (harap jangan masuk dalam poket orang orang yang diatas la ye..) dari dibuat bangunan tu. hei. ketinggian infrastruktur bukan indicator negara maju ye. harap maklum.

dah la tanak consider langsung suara rakyat, tapi still berdegil nak tegakkan benang yang basah. tolong lah. malaysia sekarang ni belum capai tahap negara maju.. sedarlah. kita perlukan duit 5 billion tu untuk macam macam benda.

ingatlahh. bila kita jadi pemimpin, kecik atau besar, selagi nama nya pemimpin, sebelah kaki kita ni dah kat neraka. tak terfikir langsung ke? gelap mata sangat ke tengok duit sebesar tu? tolonglah. jangan lah ditindas kami ni. ibu bapa kami berhempas pulas bekerja siang malam, terpaksa bayar cukai itu, cukai ini, tapi sekarang duit tu nak dihabiskan untuk buat bangunan tu? nak menangis bila teringat mak penat sampai kat pintu rumah pukul 11 malam. :'(

janganlah buat kami macam ni. itu duit kami. kami ada hak untuk katakan tidak. bila kami menentang, kami dituduh pembangkang. ya Allah. kami ni student lagi. tak berminat pun dengan dunia politik yang kotor tu. bila kena kritik sikit, asyik isu politik nak dibangkitkan. tolong lah jangan syok sendiri. kami banyak lagi benda nak buat dari ikut kata pembangkang ke, kerajaan ke.

TOLONG LAH Dato' Seri Mohd Najib Abdul Razak! salurkan lah duit kami pada yang hak. tolong.

* aku dah sampai tahap aku tak kisah apa akan jadi walaupun aku publish entry ni. yang betul, tetap betul. fullstop.

letih,

aida.

2010-10-21T04:04:00.002+08:00

skang ni pukul 4.05am. minggu depan test intro to material science. aku rasa aku tak faham langsung sepanjang belajar satu sem ni. jadahnye weh. adeih. takpe2. minat dah ade. tu kire kick start sebelum mulakan study. kan kan? em. agak pening la sebenarnya. minggu busy dah berakhir. minggu ni aku dah nak start fokus. tanak main main. insyaAllah. jadi budak undergraduate memang susah. tak dinafikan. tapi takpe. aku dah janji nak buat the best. mampus la kalau aku terpaksa korbankan lifestyle yang penuh dengan aktiviti yang best. takpe lah jadi budak nerd. janji aku bukan nerd dalam hati. woihh. hari tu aku join koir untuk performance konvo. semangat untuk belajar tu memang naik gila babeng la! tengok pemenang anugerah emas canselor dapat 3.98. pergh!. nak dapat tu agak mustahil la kan memandangkan sem ni macam hampeh. tapi insyaAllah nak target at least 2nd upper class. :D.

em. semua warga utp dah tau kot pasal sistem trimester. =_______=' camsiot. aku dah la alergik perkataan trisem tu. bayangkan. belajar macam hanjeng dari bulan Januari sampai Ogos. and then cuti macam khinzir selama 4 bulan. kesian kan? aku taktau la kalau ada homosapiens yang akan duduk rumah, do nothing selama 4 bulan tu. dah konfem konfem la kene keje. 3rd year 2nd sem yang selama ni diketahui sem khas untuk intern, akan diwujudkan, maka;

3rd year -----> INTERN ------> Final year 1st sem.

damn. takde cuti kot. em. kehidupan yang pelik bagi warga uni of toronto ni, budak budak batch aku dijangka grad tahun 2014. haha. lambat lagi tuu. tu pun kalau takde kes kes repeat *TOLONG LAH JANGANNNN!! haha

ok dah. aku ngantuk ni. dah merepek macam platipus kaler cekelat. semua white coffee ipoh punye pasal. =__='

mdqhdewicnkdjcndas,

aida.

utusan malaysia VS. utp

2010-10-12T01:11:00.003+08:00

i don't know what's her problem. maybe she was furious because utusan became a laughing stock in obe's comment section. c'mon. we won't laugh if you do your job nicely. and well, i think it's ridiculous to point your finger at UTP solely regarding this mischievous act. c'mon. as one of my friend said, we are also PERANTAU, considering we travel out of our hometown to our beloved 'Toronto'. didn't we got the chance to get our wishes published in your 'honorable', 'majestic' newspaper?

and i couldn't believe you wrote that the students whom had sent the picture did it because of their hatred towards the students going overseas. here, in UTP, i believe that our standard here are the same, OR MAYBE HIGHER than the one sent to overseas. if not, why those genius, brilliant foreigners, studied here on the first place?

you've gotta be kidding me. the way you put it, as if UTP students are the only obnoxious creature, who putting such prank. hell! there are uncountable fraud done by others, but undetectable or less popularity compared to UTP's case, since the great Obe himself praise these young geniuses (his juniors).

i am extremely mad because you, UNPROFESSIONALLY put the name of our beloved university in shame in order to pay your revenge towards us. c'mon. be professional. grow up!

a letter of hatred to ms noraini apetah,

aida.

my novel star

2010-10-11T01:58:00.002+08:00

i prefer star rather than moon or sun. so here it goes, my special one are now called star. :). before you jump to the conclusion, no, it's not who you think he is. some one else. only those who are close to me knows who he is.

this relationship is too young to be told. i don't wanna talk much about it nor publicized it. let it be my little secret. besides, some people don't really enjoy the idea of me getting attached. i'm happy with how thing's are going.

you. i'm happy with how things are going. stay this way, promise! ;D

i heart my novel star;

aida.

Senyum. :)

2010-10-07T00:58:00.003+08:00

penat kan kalau setiap hari marah marah? ape kata kita buat Smile Day. haha. jangan sesekali buat muka kalau tak nak orang buat muka kat kita.

maknanye, terpaksalah kita bermanis muka dalam hidup ni. ala. tak susah pun. senyum tu bukannye buat muka korang jadi macam muke tenuk pun. dan setakat ni, tak pernah pulak aku dengar kalau orang tu senyum, muka dia jadi hodoh. aku yakin 99.99999% dari populasi manusia jadi cantik dan hensem kalau senyum.

haha. tapi kadang kadang, bukan kita yang nak menyombong, tapi mungkin muka yang dianugerahkan Allah s.w.t. ni dah semulajadi sifatnye begitu. mungkin la kan..

p/s: maaflah kalau kadang kadang aku pun terbuat muka, mungkin sengaja atau tidak disengajakan. :)

smile; makes the world go round,

aida.

just the way you are..

2010-09-14T20:33:00.003+08:00

lagu ni sangattttt sweet! don't you think it reflects what true love means? if you love someone, it means you love him/her just the way they are. but if you wanna change them to be someone else, the verdict is clear. you don't love them. :) *aku tak boleh berhenti senyum masa dengar lagu ni! :)

Oh her eyes, her eyes

Make the stars look like they're not shining

Her hair, her hair

Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know

When I compliment her

She wont believe me

And its so, its so

Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay

I say

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails

I could kiss them all day if she'd let me

Her laugh, her laugh

She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know

Id never ask you to change

If perfect is what you're searching for

Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking

If you look okay

You know I say

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

The way you are

Girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

the maiden was no longer in distress. :)

2010-09-14T03:47:00.003+08:00

and all of a sudden, everything went well. i'm quite surprised that i didn't collapsed as i got all the great news and some of unforgettable moments that happen recently in my life.

1.despite my worry and uneasiness that last for about 2 months, alhamdullilah, i was granted a second chance by JPA. the last week before the semester and raya break, my friend, exhilaratingly called me and told me about the major news. i don't want to put my hope high at first, since i will be crushed if the news were just a rumor. after 2 calls made to my very close friends, i was screaming jubilantly with my roommate, mr. eun chan :). i don't really know why did i scream so loudly, all i know that the moment i heard about it, a thousand weight was lifted off my shoulder. thank you thank you thank you. ohmygod. thank you. :)

2. i did pretty well in my geology test until it crossed my mind to change my current programme. i nearly changed to petroleum geoscience since i WAS unsupported by jpa. but the changing thinggy vanished the moment i know i got jpa.

*i can't change my course if i was supported by JPA. hey, supported by them meant a lot to me rather than changing my course.

3. another thing happen, but let me keep it for a while. when the right time comes, i'll spill.

4. raya was great. i didnt felt this way a very long time. my happiness bloom because on my first day of raya, i managed to have my siblings picture and also a picture of my family. :). the last time this happen, was the day along graduated. that is.. 2003. damn! that's a veryyyyy long time. well, i love my family! <3

5. too many death happens.. greatest condolences to Dione Woon's family and Hani Raihan's.. Dione leaves us the day before raya because of a plane crash. and Hani's mum passed away on 3rd Syawal if i'm not mistaken. i'm not the closest person to hani, i do admit. but the day she knew about her mother's accident was when she was breaking her fast with us in Ipoh. we were shocked to hear about the accident and just imagine my feeling when i know about the news.. be strong Hani.. i know you are..

...,

aida.

undergraduate

2010-08-18T00:44:00.002+08:00

curik sedikit masa dari life as an undergraduate student. alhamdulillah.. 3 minggu dah lepas. seriously, penat kot. azam konon nya nak study, nak jadi budak skema. tapi seminggu je kot. haih. bila la kau nak serius ni.. life kat uni memang tough (ke aku sorang je loser yang takleh adapt?..). baru nak semangat study Differential Equations, assignment Statics pulak melambak. tetibe teringat pulak quiz Intro to Material Science esok. esoknye bila pegi kelas, tak salin awal awal nota Fundamentals of Petroleum Engineering. F**k. asal tak boleh nak catch up semua sekali? alasan la jugak kot pasal aku tengok bebudak lain macam relaks je. haih.

bila tengok orang lain, senang je buat soalan homework statics, sedangkan aku asyik jumpa jalan mati je. sedih betul. T____________T.

aku dah drop banyak gila event. habislahh.. lepas ni mesti muka aku susah nak dapat join event. haha. bukan apa, aku insaf. priority kepada study. aktiviti lain nombor 2. event yang aku tengah pegang sekarang tak boleh nak drop pasal mostly berkaitan student body yang aku join. pengorbanan sikit la. haha. ok. nak pegi cuba lagi buat statics ni. doakan gua berjaya. hahaha.

ramadhan mode,

aida.

2010-07-23T18:04:00.004+08:00

dah penat main edit edit blog, rasa macam sayang pulak. ni semua 'the cutest blog on the block' punye pasal. sampai hati dia nak bogelkan blog aku. haha. tapi bagus jugak, kalau tak, memang bersawang bawang la blog ni. ok. let's start. lama kot tak membebel. macam dah takde point je. haha. ingat nak buat wajah baru la. yela. blog ni mula diestablished lepas habis spm. em. lama la jugak kot. thanks to izyan arina mazlan yang buat aku teringin nak buat blog. heh.

time edit edit tadi, aku teringin gila nak tukar nama blog dengan url. tapi rasa sayang. nama blog ni tak pernah ditukar kot. tunggulah. bila dah dapat nama yang sesuai, nanti tukarlah.

em. kadang kadang segan gak dengan kawan kawan lain. semua orang blog vava voom. aku punye biasa je. haha. dulu paling advance tu la aku letak music player kat sebelah tu. time tengah kebosanan, siap ade tema playlist aku. rajin gila tukar. lama lama aku malas nak updates. lagipun aku rasa semak pulak. kalau nak dengar lagu, bukak je la music player. haha. aku jugak tanak menyemakkan readers (kalau ade la. ;p). lagipun bukan semua orang minat genre yang sama kan?

lagi satu, jujur cakaplah. siapa tanak letak macam macam latest widgets kat blog kan? tapi aku ni ade banyak limitations. malas, cerewet, tak reti, dan cepat bosan. pernah je tambah macam macam. tapi aku remove pasal err. entah. semak. ;p contohnye online users dengan hamster (momona).

ok. nak gi bertapa jap. carik ilham nak bagi nama blog. kalau korang comel, boleh la bagi suggestion. :D

blogger girl!,

aida.

durex

2010-07-14T15:44:00.002+08:00

ni iklan durex..

exhausted

2010-07-05T18:29:00.002+08:00

kita masih tak pasti. apa yang tunggu kita hari esok. yang ada hanya harapan. supaya esok akan bawa senyuman. tapi aku penat nak bentang senyuman untuk orang yang aku tak kenal. terpaksa berpura pura aku enjoy walau dalam masa yang sama, ada beban atas bahu ni. orang memang takkan faham. orang memang takkan tahu. kita yang tengah hadapi benda ni kan. kita yang sepatutnya tabah. jangan mudah kalah dengan cabaran.

*tarik nafas*

bila jpa nak bagitau jawapan?.. rasa nak pecah dada ni. yang bos pulak dah suruh buat kwsp la, bukak akaun untuk masukkan gaji la.. waktu kene arah buat itu ini, aku diam. rasa kosong sangat. speechless. tak mampu nak bagi respon. sedih kot waktu dia bagi arahan.

ya Allah... besarnya dugaan kau. aku tanak jalan ni. aku taknak diarah itu ini, aku taknak lagi disuruh suruh. dimarah marah sesuka hati. ye. memang aku anak manja. tapi kalau ditegur kene caranya, aku boleh terima. tapi bila salah orang lain tapi nak diletak ke bahu aku, aku rasa aku berhak untuk marah. aku nak bagi yang terbaik bila aku bekerja. aku pun tak harap gold star bila aku buat kerja dengan baik. taknak cakap terima kasih pun takpe. janji benda tu berjalan lancar, baik.

tapi bila aku salah sikit, salah kecik, satu dunia nak marah aku. semua orang nak pandang slack kat aku. aku baru lagi kan? tak sampai sebulan. kau ingat aku ni ape? nak digest dan jadi pekerja yang perfect dalam masa sebulan?

ok ok. nonsense. sorry. aku penat. that's all.

serving with 'smile';

aida.

2010-06-27T19:22:00.005+08:00

dissapoinment are my current middle name. sure, people DO make mistakes in their life. and i made mine. choosing utp just because i'm sponsored. rejected offers from matriculation and IIUM though i was offered a course that at least offers biology rather than taking engineering even when i know i sucks at physics and (add) maths. well, i'm not saying that i'm good at biology, but at least i love it. and thanks to my fellow friends who called me and asked me about the decision i had made. guys, its not MY decision. its a rules i HAVE to follow. besides, it is all my mistakes. i am the one who did not perform during my foundation year. i won't blame anything as a factor of my seriously bad result.

well, lets talk about the result shall we. i was THANKFULLY accepted and passed my foundation where i can still pursue undergraduate studies (which is degree) in utp. unfortunately, my CGPA didnt pass jpa's requirement. which i can simplified as i can study in UTP; with NO scholarship. NO scholarship means GOODBYE for people like me. i could never afford the fees and other payment set by utp. i know i didnt do well in my studies and therefore i know that i'm not qualified for the scholarship. it's all my fault. i messed up BIG time.

i've tried calling jpa for my scholarship status. and to my dissapoinment, i ended up wasting my time and credit getting connected to about 5 operators and when i'm on the line with the last operator, the line went dead. if only i could scream.. and therefore, i'm not interested anymore to call them since i know that my effort will end up in vain.

some of you might ask, why didnt i apply for ptptn. fyi, ptptn can only cover HALF of the cost of studying in utp; since the fees and all in utp are definitely expensive. so i rest my case. seems like i won't be studying for quite some time..

my future plan; apply for asasi sains hayat in um for next year; which is no walking in the park either. but that's the best choice i could think of right now. excel in my studies (hopefully) and taking degree in usm. i'm keeping my faith. and do pray for my success..

to my friends whom had called and messaged me about my decision, i wanna say i am really touched with your concern. and no guys, i don't belong in utp. my heart felt like exploding whenever my friends shows their concern to me. thanks so much. there are no words that i can put here to show my gratitude to all of you.

slacker,
aida.

2010-06-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

hari ni genap 3 hari saya bekerjasecara bergaji. (ewahh. ayat macam 3 tahun). yela. sebelum ni volunteer. agak suka hati la. :D keje pulak handle dengan duit yang bukan sikit. kalau short, mahu berpuluh beratus gak. aku terlebih punch air 5 tin pun dah cuak, ini kan pulak harga 3 court! =____='

2 hari pertama kene kerja masa peak hour. memang gelabah la. hari ketiga pulak shift pagi. tak ramai orang. lagipun sekarang ni kan world cup. match kebanyakannya masa peak hour kitorang. so dijangka sale akan menurun gile bab walaupun diskaun gile punye murah. :p.

not to mention kene bau sebuah drawer besar yanga menempatkan 10 bijik bola yang memang freaking busuk. ooppss. super duper freaking busuk is bau pintu masuk dalam court tu. tapi takde la kene bau 24hours. haha.

takpe la. sehari dua rasa la peritnya. tak penah kerja full hour macam ni kan. so far, ok la. ada la jugak downside dia. senior yang garang la jugak. tapi terubat jap. tengok orang main futsal. ada yang hebat, ada yang beginners. ada yang hardcore, SETIAP MALAM MAIN! ni memang gile punya regular la ni. setakat ni paling lambat balik pukul 1am. naik motor, takde la jauh mane pun. cuma perempuan naik motor tengah tengah malam. bahaya gak la. buatnye kene tahan ke ape. HAHA.

insyaAllah aku kerja betul betul mulai esok. 3 hari ni training je baru. doakan aku tak buat salah salah yang besar. AMIN!

corporate mode (HAHA friggin' HAHA),

aida.

2010-06-07T01:25:00.003+08:00

haih.

*mak kata tak baik muda muda mengeluh.*

nak pergi bercuti la. tapi mane pulak nak curik duit kan? takkan bank negara kot. aku dengar, bank negara dah bankrap. apekejadanye nak merompak orang yang dah bankrap. nusyuz tahu tak?

aku seronok hidup carefree macam ni. tapi kadang kadang alam ni tak synchronize dengan aku. aku seronok, tapi dia pulak tak seronok. time nak keluar, hujan lah. ribut topan la. ish. cuba jangan dengki. cuba. HAHA.

semalam aku jalan jalan kat oldtown cafe. saje carik pasal. tiba tiba dia bagi application form. (okay aku tipu. aku yang mintak.) haha. oldtown yang ni dekat je dengan rumah aku. tapi baru bukak la. 2 tingkat, besar dan 24 hours. so dia tanya aku sanggup ke tak. haha. see the leg la kawan. leg baru veet! :D aku gelak je. tengok la. kalau tak tahan, balik tido la. ape lagi. (tu la kelebihan carik kerja di tempat tempat yang berdekatan dengan rumah ni. HAHA)

tadi pulak, pakcik aku main main je. cakap pasal ade vacancy kat futsal complex kat rumah aku ni. HOYEAHHH! teruja jap aku dengar. tapi keterujaan aku sebentar cuma. pakcik aku suruh sebut nama dia time nak mintak kerja tu. aku pulak like nak menWATDEFAKkan jap dia ni. haih. nasib la pakcik aku. last last pegi jugak. tapi biasa la. ego kene ada. buat muka sombong barang sejam dua. lepas tu melutut dan merayu rayu (aku tipu lagi. aku mintak borang dengan muka ceria je.)

tu je aku nak cakap. haha. entahlah. malas la pulak nak kerja ni. tak boleh ke duit aku bersenggama? produce la keturunan banyak sikit. kalau nasib baik, dapat la kembar 3 ke, kembar 4 ke. kan kan?

kronik,

aida.

2010-06-05T22:38:00.002+08:00

weh, serius aku tak suka kahwin kahwin ni.. kenapa perkahwin tak boleh jadi semudah masa kita kecik kecik dulu?.. main kahwin kahwin jadi pengapit, baling baling cebisan kertas konon tengah tepung tawar.. aduhai..

aku acah acah kat nenek dengan mak aku. aku tak nak hantaran masa aku kahwin nanti. dahulukan mana yang patut. tahu ape diorang balas? "kau jangan merepek!"

erk.

tu pun salah?? dulu aku pernah tengok kat dalam majalah 3, couple yang kahwin tak bagi hantaran. alasan perempuan tu, tanak bebankan suami dia dengan hutang. dan suami dia bukan miskin pun, okeh! dia cakap, maybe dia tak dapat kasut or handbag or yang sewaktu dengannya masa kahwin dulu. but then, after dia kahwin, macam macam dia dah dapat. takyah disuruh suruh. suami dia pun bukan kecik anak. engineer kot. selamba je beli beg prada 10 bijik. haha. lagipun, takde pun dalam sunnah nabi kene bagi hantaran berdulang dulang.

*sunnah nabi hanya diikut bila seseorang lelaki tu nak kahwin lebih =___='*

sampaikan aku naik meluat pun ada dengan kahwin kahwin ni. kenapa la orang kita lagi suka menjunjung adat tapi rela menjinjing agama? aku bukan lah orang yang layak when it comes to soal agama ni, tapi kita boleh fikir mana baik mana buruk kan? sanggup buat anak menantu spend duit berpuluh puluh ribu (sampai ada yang sanggup berhutang!). kalau time kahwin je grand, tapi lepas kahwin hidup merana, bergolok gadai, buat apa? perkahwinan tu sendiri dah disalah erti. benda yang simple nak di susahkan.

p/s: kalau time aku nak kahwin nanti kene pressure dengan semua orang, aku dah nekad. aku nak kahwin lari! ;)

annoyed,

aida.

31 Mei

2010-05-31T02:12:00.001+08:00

ada apa dengan 31 mei?

-hari gawai?

-hari tanpa facebook sedunia?

-hari hari?

harimau,

aida.

the wedding

2010-05-30T01:09:00.002+08:00

is it fate or coincidence? today, whatever story i watched, books i read, it's all about birthday's. HAHA.

okay okay. sorry for the keperasanan kejap. actually i wanna talk about weddings today. i don't know bout you guys, but i don't really like going to wedding ceremony. growing up, my mom always ask me to follow her to all of our neighbor weddings and i always refused to. even if i'm going, i will end up sulking and complaining constantly until my wishes is granted; that is home. =____=' (brats! :|) and that explains why my mom didn't ask me if i wanna go to the weddings because i might be in the mood before going but she knows what chaos will i cause at the end of the day. better safe than sorry. haih.

however, few years back, i've changed a bit. maybe living in a hostel makes me craving for some social events and i don't mind going to wedding, and i will try real hard to stay calm and patience for the seemingly endless moment. i mean, we go to weddings, greeted by the parents of the bride, eat the nasi minyak, giving presents or money to the host and then head home. blame me for my stereotype opinion on wedding but that's how see it based on years of attending them.

to be honest, when i grow up, i remember that my mom and my grandma always said, 'if you don't come to other people's weddings, they'll never go to yours'. that is most definitely right and i that is the only pep talk that is able to make yours truly go to a wedding.

[i wonder what it feels like to attend your friend's wedding. lol! can't wait. it'll be weird. ;)]

weddingophobia,

aida.

2010-05-29T03:57:00.003+08:00

note to self; eventhough you are craving for old town coffee or starbucks or anything related, PLEASE DON'T DRINK THEM at night. at least ask for the decaf one.as a result, i can't sleep though i've been yawning for almost 3000 times. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!

white day

2010-05-25T16:31:00.002+08:00

do you guys know what 'White Day' is?

i'm sure everybody is familiar with Valentine's Day right? on the 14th February.. yadda yadda yadda.. bla bla bla..

i just discover an interesting fact from Japan. Valentine's day in japan means the girl will give a chocolate to the boy she likes, or had a crush on.

a month later, on the 14th of March; the boy who received a chocolate in the V-day are expected to give a chocolate to the girl back; especially a white one. the 'return gift' must be 2 or 3 times the cost of the girl's chocolate on Valentine. the common 'return gift' are like white chocs, marshmallow, white jewellery or white lingerie.

white day, interesting huh?

whitish white;

aida.

jew nowadays

2010-05-20T15:29:00.002+08:00

and all of a sudden, adolf hitler is no longer the bad guy. in fact, we should all thank him for starting the 'Jewish Holocaust'. maybe he had a vision that the Jews will be the meanest species alive. i received some pictures about the condition of the past vs the present. in the past, Jews are the one who had been sympathized by the world. but today, they torture the Palestinian mercilessly. and it makes me wonder..

why can't the world, do something to stop the massacre that happens in palestine?.. Israel is ONLY a country. why did 'the world' lost to A COUNTRY? why didn't anyone do something about it?

wondering why,

aida.

2010-05-17T01:51:00.001+08:00

hooray!! my passion for books has officially been revived! and the winner are:

by Whitney Gaskell

and the other winner :

can't wait to finish these two basterd who had cost me RM41 in total. damn! and while i'm on book-hunting, i am actually having a greater mission and buying books are just the cover up plan. ;). i didn't mean to spend so much on books since i have a greater plan in the future. ;) call me a dork for reading such books. i don't care, REALLY. :D

(p/s: wish me luck in having some peace now. i'm currently desperate for one.)

happily in lalaland,

aida.

is it wrong to be FAT?

2010-05-17T00:18:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry but i am seriously touched with the feedback i got from my friends on my fb's status. i rarely speak about this stuff because to be honest, i am EXTREMELY sensitive about it and sorry, but that's just it.

SO I'M FAT! what's wrong with you? and the fat category i'm talking about in the moment is not the skinny-girl-who-always-claimed-they-are-FAT-when-they-are-actually-NOT but this is the fat, obese girl category i'm talking about (for those who didn't know me). it is the most obvious character of mine and if i can be ignorance about it, WHY CAN'T YOU? i really don't get it. i'm the one who have to carry MY BIG FEATURE and MY FATS wherever i go; not you. why are you the one who's in such a big fuss? am i bothering you with my obesity? sorry if i am, and PLEASE, NEVER BE A FRIEND OF MINE. i'm not that desperate to beg people to be my friend.

i've been 'the FAT GIRL' since i'm in primary school and god knows how hard for me to create the mask i'm wearing right now. do you think it's easy to walk with your skinny and beautiful girlfriends when you are the only one who aren't? IT'S NOT. the persona i've been presented to the world is as who you can see now. the friendly, talkative, boyish, kind of girl. to tell you the truth, i'm not this outspoken. i'm not this bold and brave young girl you've known. the real me had been buried forever and i'm trying to forget it.

i am once a very shy and quiet young girl. i don't have a lots of friends back then. i am quite a loner. and i have the chance to hide myself in my room and live in my own world. but i had chose not to. i've chosen to be someone else when i'm in secondary school. i choose to be someone who people would respect. the status and personality i had makes me a new person and with the credibility, positions and achievements i had makes me a the person i wanna be. the respected one. and another thing, i am fragile. once you've touched me, i am broken real fast.

why can't people try to accept me for who i am? i'm not begging to be accepted here. i'm just saying. if you can't accept me, that fine. i'm not going to force anyone to be my friend. just let me live in my comfortable skin. i've read too many chicks magazine to help my confidence level and your mocks and humiliation is the last thing i wanna from you.

a little respect would be nice. this is definitely the last time i would ever say this. i can tolerate many thing in life, except this one. sorry if i'm not sporting enough. a day in my shoes would probably makes you understand what have i gone through.

(this post is specially dedicated to all of the people who loves to make fun about my size. thank you.)

far from perfect,

aida.

2010-05-14T14:24:00.004+08:00

seronok seronok seronok!!! hari ini 14 Mei 2010. rasa macam hari ni takkan datang. penat aku tunggu. :D i'm no longer foundation student! :D. haha. kalau korang kata "aik, macam yakin je bukan foundie lagi. ntah ntah kene repeat" [simpang simpang!] HAHA. reasonnya adalah... AKU TANAK DAN TAKKAN AMBIL FOUNDATION KAT SINI LAGI! :D. yelah. buatnya kene repeat, ko ingat yuran dia rm2 setengah? kalau dah takde scholar, boleh say goodbye. terpaksalah ambil jalan lain. asasi sains hayat um. tu pun kalau dapat. haih. terkebelakang. sedih kan? :|

by the way, rasa macam semalam je aku jejak kaki dalam bilik v2C-216 ni. rasa macam semalam je baru terkedek kedek daftar nama untuk lab sem 1. takut takut je tulis nama. rasa macam semalam je kene ambik gambar untuk buat matrix card. haha. rasa macam semalam je jawab test chemistry I dan cuak rasa nak nangis pasal tak dapat jawab soalan subjek yang aku pernah obses dulu..

wuuuuuuuu!! seronoknyaaaaa :). walaupun banyak gila dugaan tapi perasaan ni susah nak describe. haha. serupa orang dah graduate je. :D. sorry ya. saya ni penuh emosi orangnya. :D

ni ANTARA pictures yang aku suka, antara bittersweet memories aku kat sini. (rasanya ni kot entri aku yang paling banyak gambar. haha)

ni gambar masa pergi induction camp Kelab Kembara dan Rekreasi UTP. haha. bajet je nak tulis nak kelab panjang panjang. ;P. abseiling through waterfall. cool tak? dengan topi kuning, tudung pink, baju biru.. errrrr. jangan cakap! hahahaha

sorry, takda gambar semua ahli SRMUTP. just a part of it. ahli ahli yang terlibat jayakan sri iskandar mountain bike challenge 2010. first pengalaman bekerja dengan senior senior. bukan setakat senior je la. kawan kawan sebatch, seumur. hee. harap dapat jumpa lagi! :D

farahatul, esah, me, najwa, gummy, dida, ciput, and kiki

ni gambar masa birthday kiki. birthday girl yang duduk belakang sekali tu. pose yang unik mungkin? haha. okay okay. ni geng aku yang belah sana. kat floor aku ni, ade la dalam 12 bilik. so, kawan kawan aku belah sana, diorang ni la. kawan kawan yang belah sini? kejap lagi aku tunjuk. :D geng ni mostly bebudak ICT and BUSINESS. haha. i ramai cliques u. HAHA. ok yucks.

kiki, calvin, me, najwa, mokri

ada lagi seorang patutnya, dida. cik tukang tangkap gambar. yang poyo kat depan tu, najwa. haha. gonna miss you babe! ni one of the most unforgettable night. main basketball dalam hujan. dengan dua orang gents yang sangat expert dan dua orang ladies yang wakil sampai peringkat kebangsaan. AND THEY ARE ALL MY FRIENDS! fuiyoo. gempak kan? haha.

me, esah and ili

kenangan yang agak mendebarkan + manis + jauh dari panggang dengan api kalau nak dibandingkan dengan sem ni punya result. kenangan masa dean's list. entah bila lah nak dapat lagi. takpelah. ada rezeki, insyaAllah.. :)

ciput, dida, kiki, najwa, me

gambar ni gambar dinner batch. takde la dinner batch yang grand grand. dinner sempena penutup karnival trimester je. seronok jugak lah. walaupun course aku kalah. haha. :P

ulun, atul, khairiah, chan, ili, nadiah, myra,esah.

duduk: me and syafiqah. haha

ni gambar masa birthday syafiqah zamri. bergambar di luar petronas. time time genting nak test. perasan tak muka brithday girl sangat tak ikhlas bergambar? haha. aku bagi hadiah special kat fiq. tora datang lagi! haha. dapat hadiah yo-yo tau. walaupun cikai punya. haha

me and fiq.

gambar malam heart to heart. melepak dekat jalan utp ni yang kitorang panggil 'jalan romantik'. cantik kan jalan ni? mesti aku rindu kau. haha. (ye, aku akan rindu jalan, bukan rindu kau, fiq :P)

gambar gambar yang aku upload ni, secara random ok? takde pilih kasih. aku tengok pic ni macam best, aku upload. ade certain, susah nak bagitahu kenapa aku suka. seriously, im gonna miss you all.

okay. barang satu hapak pun tak packing lagi. ramai gila dah update status dah sampai rumah. haha. biarlah. kitorang ada special night. well, harap harap special! ;) ok. dah merepek gila babeng. next update, pastinya aku dah kat rumah! yeayyy!!! :D

reminiscing,

aida.

2010-05-12T13:36:00.003+08:00

one paper left. chemistry II. can't give up now. two days left for FREEDOM!. i really can't wait! :D in the mean time, wish me luck! :D

i forgot to wish all the foundies of may '09 goodluck. but since we only got one paper now, i wanna wish, ENJOY YOURSELF. :D

regards,

aida.

2010-05-07T01:27:00.000+08:00

aku dah lama join satu group kat fb. I HATE seeing my mom cry .teringat the real reason kenape aku join group ni.

waktu aku form 2 ke form 3 (maaf, tak ingat), masa tu, mane la mampu nak ada mp3. ingat lagi. waktu ni aku sibuk kumpul kaset. cd pun tak mampu nak beli. tapi minat punya pasal, duit belanja setiap bulan aku habis kat kaset kaset ni la (+ comics, magazines :]) zaman muda muda la katakan. haha.

ada sekali ni, aku dah kumpul duit nak beli satu kaset ni. special edition. compilation banyak artis yang aku suka. bila pergi speedy, aku memang excited gila masa tu. tapi duit pulak tak cukup. =________='

balik rumah, aku pujuk mak aku. mintak rm20 tak silap aku. nak cukupkan duit semata mata nak beli kaset tu. aku ingat lagi, time tu mak tengah takde duit sangat. aku pulak mana la kisah nilai duit ni masa tu. aku ni pulak jenis suka suka aku je. lepas je duit cukup, aku terus siap siap. nak pegi jusco. time tu dah malam. aku tak pernah keluar rumah malam malam waktu tu. :D. baik gila kan? haha

mak pun dah cuak gila. aku pulak macam tak kesah. walaupun first time keluar malam sorang sorang, tapi rasa macam takde pape pun. baru je bukak gate, mak marah. mak suruh aku masuk balik. takyah keluar. aku pulak jenis anak manja (=____________='). terkejut la pasal mak melenting. jarang ok! aku pun masuk bilik. hempas pintu. nangis..

takut pasal kene marah + marah kat emak + sedih pasal tak dapat beli kaset

*teruk kan?*

malam tu waktu nak tidur, aku tidur berpaling dari mak, (lepas arwah ayah takde, kitorang adik beradik kecuali along akan tidur kat ruang tamu dengan mak. tapi sekarang dah tak la.) aku tidur tak pandang mak. kononnya marah kat mak, merajuk gila babeng, benci kat mak.. sampai macam tu sekali..

malam tu aku tidur sambil menangis. pasal mak pun buat tak layan dengan aku. sedar sedar je, aku dah terlena.

dalam 1 jam lepas tu, aku tersedar. jarang aku terbangun kalau dah tidur. kalau tak pun, mamai je. tapi malam tu, aku terjaga pasal aku rasa ada orang usap kepala aku. kan tadi aku cakap aku tidur membelakangkan mak kan?

aku pasang telinga.

"ida.. mak bukan taknak bagi.." mak aku cakap. aku dapat dengar yang mak aku menangis waktu cakap tu..

time tu, rasa sebak sangat. rasa nak pecah dada aku dengar mak menangis. lepas arwah ayah meninggal, aku tak pernah tengok mak menangis.

sedar sedar, aku pun nak teresak esak. menangis jugak.. tapi mak taktahu. aku buat buat tidur. tapi payah sangat pura pura tidur sambil tahan nangis.

tu la satu moment yang aku paling tak boleh lupa sampai sekarang. berdosanya aku pasal buat mak menangis.. anak yang jahat kan?

rindu mak,

aida.

2010-05-05T18:01:00.001+08:00

ada sape sape pernah cakap dengan korang tak, jangan minum coke masa period?

sakit la gile!!!

2010-05-02T02:41:00.002+08:00

kiss me goodnight

before these eyes closed

for i don't wanna sleep

until your warm lips caressed mine

hold my hand

i don't wanna let go

for i don't wanna sleep

alone without you by my side

cuddle me softly

hold me tight

for i don't wanna sleep

cold; without your warmth

before i closed my eyes

i want you to promise me

not to vanish

because i wanna see your face

the first thing when i wake up.

- nite :) -

p/s: can't help it. jiwang mode. :D [dedicated to lovers all around the world]

2010-04-30T13:35:00.007+08:00

*sigh*

petanda tak baik. awal awal dah mengeluh. kenapa la cepat benar kau menyerah lately ni?

dulu kau bukan macam ni.. perlu ke aku salahkan kehidupan asrama yang penuh dengan drama untuk ke-fragile-an aku sekarang? em.. definitely NOT! [sweet memories + kawan kawan + drama = precious. :)]

maybe stress dengan musim test ni. takpe takpe. dah nak habis dah pun. sabar sekejap je lagi. habis final tak silap aku 14hb mei. kot la. aku pun tak ingat sangat.

ha. cerita pasal habis final ni, kitorang teringin sangat nak join Kejohanan Rentap Futsal Putrajaya Kosmo!. jangan salah anggap. kitorang ni semua beginners je. tapi serius gile gile nak masuk. masalahnye pulak, tournament start sehari lepas kitorang habis final. em. dah la cuti panjang. takkan la semua orang nak rushing rushing pulak kan? kalau kitorang yang semangat ni memang sanggup, tapi orang orang yang kitorang ajak? resultnya, semua orang tanak + berat nak ikut. nak form team (8 orang je pun) memang azab gila la. almost nak give up dah ni. dalam manusia manusia seluruh alam kat utp ni, takde yang nak join. haishh.. :'(.... atul, maybe next year?..

*tarik nafas*

tadi shahira (kawan rapat aku masa form 3) tag gambar kelas kitorang. ahhhhh. rindu kot. bukan form 5, tapi form 3 wehh. cepat gila kan? dulu kecik lagi. ponteng kelas tu macam dosa besar. haha. masuk u dah mula jadi setan. =____='

kenangan 3 bestari '06; SMK zon R1 wangsa maju

ni pulak gambar waktu form 5. tahun terakhir sebagai pelajar sekolah. sekolah yang banyak kenangan pahit masam masin. yang ajar aku banyak benda. seronok bila terkenang balik. reunion okay sayang sayangku sekalian! :)

kenangan 5 cekal '08; SM Sains Muar

okay. sesi reminiscing the old days dah habis. haha. okay. so, minggu depan ada test 2 physics. haihh. sekarang baru nak rasa menyesal. tu lah. dalam kelas dr. john ko gi main bingo. bangang agaknye. hahaha. sekarang nganga la ko nak jawab konsep konsep tu semua. HAHA. the week after tu pulak, FINAL EXAM. weeeee~! (x_____x)

eh. nak komen sikit pasal kes plagiarism terbaru kat blog obe. mamat tu busted gila kot. kesian.. tapi bangang! amirul naim azahan. hish. kenapa la kau boleh copy pasta blog obe tu der. =______='. buruk padah.

i wonder, why did people want to have a blog if they're just going to copy paste other people's work. seriously, i don't get it dude. cool sangat ke ada blog? hurm..

okay. so, hidup ceria, dan note to self, JANGAN CURIK CONTENT BLOG OBE. hahaha

salam dari anfield,

aida

2010-04-27T17:22:00.002+08:00

trance metal sedang mendominasi carta halwa telinga aku bermula isnin. sampai bila aku akan stick to this genre? only time will tell. tapi aku tanya balik diri aku, aku memang minat ke atau is this just some kind of desperate attempt to be cool or what.

kenapa aku cakap macam ni? pasal aku tanak orang cakap aku poseur. tu je.

tolong la. jangan la terlalu cepat judge aku. salah ke aku bila aku baru nak minat genre macam ni? ada aku susahkan kau? memang sebelum ni aku melalak dengar miley cyrus, mariah carey, mcfly and several other artist yang tak cool. so what? aku ni musicmaniac. aku fleksibel when it comes to music. no matter what the genre is (except for hiphop, i despise 'em), aku akan enjoy bila lagu tu aku suka. and aku tak pernah specified kan genre aku. sorry cakap tapi aku tak suka and aku terasa kalau orang nak sindir sindir aku pasal benda macam ni. bajet aku ni minah rempit yang sekolah form 3 je ke? huh. and tolong jangan nak perasan cool, please. everyone got their rights and aku tak pernah nak kritik taste ko, so don't you dare criticize mine. music tu divine bagi aku. maybe orang akan cakap aku bodoh pasal nak mendivinekan music. tapi it's only my opinion and it's according to my point of view. tak suka, aku tak marah pun.

sorry ter emo. aku nak orang orang ni faham je. we go our way, okay? it's so much better

maaf,

aida.

2010-04-25T01:06:00.005+08:00

sumpah. aku terlupa aku ada blog. damn lama tak update. ;D

minggu lepas dah berakhir. test 2 chemistry. dah habis. lega sikit. walaupun ada test 2 for calculus and physics coming up, tapi relax jap. oihh. pecah la kepala den kalau straight je belajar! heeee. [takde la belajar mane pun sebenarnye]

okay. malam lepas habis test hari tu, kitorang gi release tension kat court basketball. mula mula tu, aku malas nak main. tapi pasal aku bosan duduk bilik, aku pun ikut la. bila dah main, BEST GILE! mula mula tu, opponent asyik score je. aku pun dah tak seronok nak main. tapi tak lama lepas tu, kitorang pulak score. semua target nak score sampai 20 points (bukannye scoring ikut 3, 2, or 1 point, k. ikut berape kali kau masukkan bola je. hee). bila dah nak sampai 20 tu, baru la rase semangat nak main. FINAL RESULT- 19-20. huhuhu. best kot! kalah tipis. takpe takpe.

lepas main basketball, lepak kat kafe v5. bagi bukan budak sini, kafe ni bagi aku yang paling eksklusif la. lepas tu, chow balik. dah balik, tak terus tido. layan movie night dengan kanak kanak geng fine ni. sorority row. haish. suke betul kite dengan cerita bunuh bunuh ni kan? =___='

hari jumaat pulak. agak slow sikit. tak banyak buat aktiviti. TAPI! aku berjaya main kayak buat kali pertama seumur hidup aku. SUMPAH BEST! seronok. mula mula tu takut. pasal nampak ramai budak yang jatuh dalam tasik. hahaha. lawak pun ada jugak. tapi serius la. tasik tu memang dalam. gile takut. heh. seronok sangat pasal aku macam dah jumpa latest minat aku. hee. excited gila. sampai rasa nak masuk kayak team sekarang jugak!

hari ni pegi tasik lagi. niat berkobar kobar nak main kayak lagi. bila sampai, kitorang pun saje je ngade ngade nak usyar games karnival sukan rakyat. last last, kitorang pun terlibat main sekali. main galah panjang. hahahha. seronok gak la. walaupun kalah. tapi dapat siji free free je. hahaha. akibatnya, dah terlalu lambat nak main kayak. haishh.. tapi ganti main terompah gergasi. haha. tengok tengok kuda. tak teringin pulak nak naik. macam tak seronok je. bawak jalan pusing pusing situ jugak. huhu. balik dalam keadaan tengah hujan renyai renyai. buat bodoh je. sampai bilik, layan game sepam, lepas tu, siap siap pasal malam ada plan nak memasak pulak! aku takde la tolong sangat pun. potong sayur dengan cili je. sambung lepas aktiviti dengan movie night berkumpulan. malam ni tengok prom night pulak. (tak rase kite ni terlalu banyak tengok cerita bunuh bunuh ke? next aku nak tengok cerite romance dengan hantu pulak! tak kire. hahahaa)

tu je nak cerita. lama sangat tak update blog. by the way, minggu depan ada test calculus and the week after that, test physics pulak. tak lama lepas test physics, FINAL! huaaaaaaaaaaa!! doakan saya please! okay. habis.

penat membebel,

aida.

2010-04-13T17:12:00.001+08:00

andai kata aku tak layak nak sambung belajar kat sini lagi kan, aku nak kejar la cita cita aku yang pernah terkandas dulu. forensic scientist. walaupun aku cepat geli, tapi, minat punya pasal, geli tak geli, belakang kira. tapi.. macam mana nak mulakan semua balik eh?

=_=',

aida.

2010-04-09T01:43:00.002+08:00

encik hafiz cakap, tinggal lagi sebulan je. and i believe that refers to our foundie period kan? :D

lagi sebulan je weh. macam tak sangka pulak dah nak dekat setahun kan? ada yang baru lagi rapat dengan aku. ada jugak yang memang dari sem 1 lagi dah jadi teman setia. apa pun, thanks sangat pasal jadikan hari aku penuh dengan gelak ketawa. kalau ada yang sakit hati, emo emo, kita kira kosong kosong la eh? ;)

jangan pernah lupa apa yang kita pernah kongsi. walaupun mungkin bukan the best thing in the world, tapi bagi aku, moments dengan korang sangat precious. thanks sangat sangat. pasal korang, aku jadi rajin nak buat worksheet bagai bagai ni. salah satu sebab nya, aku segan bila korang semua siap kerja and aku tak. that is why aku mula berubah agak mendadak sem ni.

konflik, drama, rahsia antara kita biar jadi simpanan kita sahaja, okay? :) walaupun kita tak suka sangat benda benda tu, TERUTAMANYA konflik, tapi kite kena mengaku, benda tu la yang jadikan kita makin rapat. aku mungkin bukan kawan terbaik bagi each and everyone of you, but once aku sayang kat kawan kawan aku, aku tak sayang main main tau. korang la pengganti family aku kat sini.

terima kasih sangat untuk setiap masa korang yang pernah aku guna untuk terangkan kat aku konsep konsep physics, or teori teori dalam chemistry and cara nak calculate, integrate jadah jadah for calculus. TERIMA KASIH sangat sangat. aku appreciate sangat setiap pertolongan korang. tak mampu aku nak balas. (jangan mintak aku belanja cendol! hahaha)

okay, post kali ni konfem aku tak delete dah. hahahaha

love,

aida.

2010-04-08T10:23:00.002+08:00

i'm everything but okay.

cepatlah berakhir quiz 3 calculus.

walaupun quiz, tapi 10% tau! takde beza dengan test.

cepatlaaa. nak pergi jumpa cadbury. nak tonton movies dengan kawan kawan. nak main Twister lagi. ='(

sakit,

aida.

2010-04-07T15:41:00.004+08:00

you and me

together under the starry skies

wanna know why i don't even look at you?

because i couldn't watch your face

since the butterflies will go crazy if i do :)

you and me

together we sit next to each other

no contacts were made

your warmth is more than enough

to make me thankful

for your presence here

you and me

silent is dominating us

no words were spoken

i don't even bother to speak

because i know

we've talked too much

and our heart is the one who's do all the talking :)

you and me

no i didn't met you yet

but all i know is

God had written that you are for me

and i am yours

just take a good care of yourself

because i hope that we'll see each other soon enough

insyaAllah..

p/s: sorry tetiba jiwang tahap gaban. HAHA

bored,

aida.

2010-04-03T23:15:00.002+08:00

rasa hidup macam tak teratur sangat kebelakangan ni. bilik bersepah. da lama tak menyapu. laundry pun main campak je dalam mesin. buku bersepah sepah. pemalas gila nak gosok baju. masak nasi lagi la malas. haish. makin teruk jadinya. memang tak layak jadi bini orang. =_='

mak, ampunkanlah anak mu yang pemalas tahap gaban ni.

roommate ku encik faiqah, ampun juga.

malas tahap kambing tengah sawah,

aida.

2010-04-03T23:05:00.001+08:00

UTP choir team, here i come! :D

2010-04-03T01:15:00.004+08:00

aku dah lama join satu group kat fb. I HATE seeing my mom cry. teringat the real reason kenape aku join group ni.

takut pasal kene marah + marah kat emak + sedih pasal tak dapat beli kaset

*teruk kan?*

malam tu aku tidur sambil menangis. pasal mak pun buat tak layan dengan aku. sedar sedar je, aku dah terlena.

aku pasang telinga.

"ida.. mak bukan taknak bagi.." mak aku cakap. aku dapat dengar yang mak aku menangis waktu cakap tu..

time tu, rasa sebak sangat. rasa nak pecah dada aku dengar mak menangis. lepas arwah ayah meninggal, aku tak pernah tengok mak menangis.

sedar sedar, aku pun nak teresak esak. menangis jugak.. tapi mak taktahu. aku buat buat tidur. tapi payah sangat pura pura tidur sambil tahan nangis.

tu la satu moment yang aku paling tak boleh lupa sampai sekarang. berdosanya aku pasal buat mak menangis.. anak yang jahat kan?

rindu mak,

aida.

2010-03-31T23:17:00.002+08:00

i haven't been out for quite a long time. no more strolling in the park. seems like everybody don't bother for some fresh air. haih.

ha. a good news after a few days i've been clouded by gloominess. i didn't expect that bad results and several breakdowns will make me a better student as a matter of fact. it seems like these bad omen had blown a better and more positive vibe to me.

last week, i stayed up late (until 4 in the morning) and i must proudly says that those hours are absolutely spent well. i did my own work (well, not ALL of them ; 'f course. :D)

ok. i've finished my physics report. and it's 11.37pm. WOW! haha. wanna off to sleep! yeay me!

poyo;

aida.

2010-03-26T05:08:00.003+08:00

kami dilanda fenomena final destination gara gara marathon selama 5 hari berturut turut (cuti sehari pasal nak siapkan assignment) menonton final destination 1, 2, 3 dan 4.

seorang kawan aku yang sangat poyo kata kononnya dia dapat premonition. aku mati dulu.

cara aku mati?

mati pucuk masa main layang layang.

palotak ko!

-aida.-

2010-03-24T22:19:00.003+08:00

aku kalah. kalah dengan diri sendiri. kecewa sangat bila subjek yang aku target, yang aku belajar, aku tak mampu nak jawab. aku tahu memang la usaha aku tu bukanlah benda yang boleh dibanggakan sangat, tapi at least aku tahu, aku dah cuba. waktu jawab test chemistry hari tu, aku terkejut. aku langsung tak jangka soalan soalan macam tu yang keluar. tapi aku nak cuba jugak buat sehabis baik. tapi aku kecewa sangat, aku tak dapat jawab.

bila dapat paper test, jujurnya, aku tak harapkan markah yang tinggi pun. aku tahu macam mana aku jawab hari tu. tapi bila dapat paper tu, aku tenung lama lama markah aku. bukan tak pernah dapat markah rendah, sem 1 dulu dah selalu sangat dah. entah kenapa, markah rendah mana pun, hati aku tetap kering gila. still boleh gelak gelak. tapi susah sangat aku nak terima bila subjek yang aku dah study, still tak mampu nak bagi apa yang aku harap.

hari ni aku kalah. first time since aku kat sini aku tumpahkan air mata untuk pelajaran..

aku tak pernah rasa fragile macam ni. tengok kawan kawan aku yang lain, segan sangat sangat. diorang still mampu dapat at least, half dari markah penuh. mula mula aku tahan. ish. takkan la aku nak menangis pasal benda remeh camni.. tapi tak boleh nak tipu diri sendiri la. aku diam je tengok kawan kawan regret tersalah jawab la, apa lah. tapi bila tiba tiba diorang tegur aku, aku terus tak dapat kawal. masa tu, mata aku dah berkaca dah. tapi tak lama, aku terus pergi toilet.

aku nangis sepuas hati. tenung dalam cermin. serabut sangat.

aku nak support aku.. aku nak mak.. tapi aku segan. macam mana nak cakap dengan mak? aku takut sangat aku dah kecewakan mak. mak aku bukan lah macam certain parents yang tekankan sangat pasal belajar, in fact, tak pernah paksa aku untuk belajar. tapi aku tahu apa yang mak aku harap. cuma thankfully, mak bukan jenis yang suka memaksa.

tiba tiba fiqoo datang. rupanya dia ikut aku pergi toilet. dia sabarkan aku. tapi aku dah kalah.. aku takut tak mampu nak bangun balik..

since that day, aku sebernanya dah putus harapan. aku dah tak nampak masa depan aku kat sini. that is why, aku cuba nak live this moment to the fullest. who knows, i may never see them again after this. korang, kalau aku tak dapat sambung degree kat sini, jangan pernah lupa kat aku tau.. :)

dying,

aida.

2010-03-21T01:56:00.003+08:00

manusia yang dilahirkan dengan kromosom XX, adakah memang dilahirkan dengan sikap suka dengan kasut?? =_='

.NBC.

penat jalan dalam times square semalam, sementara balik sekolah. janji dengan mak, beli sandal BATA je. janji punya janji, semalam dah naik gila la juga. almost nak habiskan rm70 untuk sepasang everlast. ya. memang smart, tapi nak guna daun ke sara hidup aku nanti? =_=' bai de wei, bila aku sampai bilik, sesi ngade ngade dengan kasut baru, errr, baru aku perasan, kaki kanan aku yang masih bengkak ni, tak mampu nak masuk dengan selesa nya dalam kasut ni. normal size 7, masalahnye, takde size lagi besar masa beli. adoi.. bila la bengkak nak surut?!

macam pompuan. ceh.

ni pulak cerita bangang aku hari ni. lepas je meeting yang kononnya mula 9 pagi (tapi start 10 pagi, WTF?!), kitorang terus gerak ipoh. dalam hati janji, tanak beli barang banyak banyak. blah la ko! duit dalam akaun tu nak semput tau ko asyik keluar je. bangang! oh ya. menambahkan cerita bangang aku, aku dengan selamba badak beli kasut yang di atas ni. palotak aku!

ni cerita tragis aku. sedar tak sedar, dah berapa pasang kasut aku beli sepanjang kat utp. oh ya. gambar kat atas ni, minus converse high cut pasal aku rembat je yang tu, tak beli pun. :D

3 bijik VANS

boros itu amalan setan,

aida.

2010-03-19T03:26:00.002+08:00

tanak balik sekolah!! bosan bosan! asyik belajar je! ingat aku ni ape?? student?? ARGHHHHH. tanak tanak! nak duduk rumah! nak duduk bawah ketiak mak! nak online 24/7! nak tengok semua collection movies sampai habis! nak jalan jalan sampai mak telefon beribu ribu kali suruh balik! nak beli stationery banyak banyak! (aku obses beli stationery) nak errr... ape lagi eh?

[ni la yang aku cuba sampaikan. tanak balik sekolah. tapi kalau duduk rumah pun, nak buat apa je selain aktiviti aktiviti di atas?? boleh je nak keluar hari hari. tapi, sejak bila pulak mak aku cop duit?]

tanak balik,

aida.

2010-03-16T20:21:00.006+08:00

dalam perjalanan balik dari sunway tadi, aku berborak lama gile ngan chan. first time aku ada satu conversation yang tak melibatkan kelucahan, or anything yang lagha. serius punya! hehe

aku baru lepaskan semua ketakutan aku, kegusaran tentang masa depan aku. rasa sebak. rasa sedih.

bagi yang tak tahu, untuk teruskan pengajian kat utp, aku hanya kena lepas 2.1 je. tapi apa yang jadi cabaran, untuk teruskan penajaan jpa, aku kena dapat 3.3 and above.

dulu serius cakap. aku memang bangang betul bab bab ni. aku ingatkan senang nak dapat pointer macam tu. tapi bila dah lalui sendiri, ya Allah.. aku dah banyak kali hampir tewas.

sem 1- physics 1, chemistry 1, precalculus, and english 1

aku mengaku, aku main main. sem ni jugak aku baru dapat laptop sendiri. memang lupa diri. online, tak fokus study. aku macam blur gila. kalau korang tanya ape yang aku belajar sem ni, aku pun maybe gagap nak jawab. ntah la.. time test markah selalu rendah. malam final exam, time semua orang nak buat revision, buat latihan, aku pulak baru nak BELAJAR.

result: 2.71

komen: aku tau, memang teruk. rasa rendah diri gila kot masa tu. walaupun ramai jugak budak jpa yang tak lepas 3.3, at least diorang lepas 3.0. aku? hurm..

sem 2 - thinking skills, islamic studies, intro to programming, english 2 and co-cu

awal awal tu, ceria je selalu. yela. sem yang kononnya relaks. kitorang dapat result sem 1 masa pertengahan sem 2. down sekejap. tapi bangkit balik. janji dengan diri sendiri. sem ni kena buat baik baik. sem ni je peluang aku untuk naikkan CGPA.

result: 3.69

komen: terkejut amat sangat. akhirnya. first result uni yang buat aku rasa semangat balik. kebanyakkan kawan kawan aku semua naik. dean's list belaka. alhamdulillah..

sem 3 - physics 2, chemistry 2 and calculus

my current sem. sem penentu masa depan aku. betul weh. kalau time degree nanti, scholar jpa just kena lepas 2.1 and above je. pegawai jpa yang cakap. so, memang kitorang kena struggle sem ni je. after this, insyaAllah, boleh tarik nafas lega. awal sem ni, semangat berkobar kobar. aku KENA belajar betul betul! seminggu pertama, ok. start minggu kedua.. hurm.. mula hilang direction. tiba tiba, sem ni pulak aku gatal join event event and student body. dari life uni yang relaks, aku mula ada tanggungjawab. aku tak kisah sangat mula mula tu. pasal benda yang aku minat kan. tapi, bila priority da terbahagi kepada macam macam benda, aku mula rasa gelabah. ehh. aku nak study laa. alamak. pukul 9 kang ada meeting. balik meeting, online kejap (kononnya). arghh.. ngantuk. tido la. ada la dalam 2 minggu aku jadi macam tu.

untuk test 1, hancur. tak boleh jawab. kenapa? tak cukup latihan. aku faham rasanya. tapi tak rajin nak buat latihan, masa test, memang tak dapat nak tolong la.

_____________________________________________________

masa berborak dengan chan tadi, baru aku sedar. aku seolah dah takde future. mana hala tuju aku andai kata aku memang tak dapat nak capai 3.3 tu? foundation utp bukan boleh guna kat ipt lain pun.. maksudnya, aku kena start semuanya balik ke?..

aku tanak jadi beban lagi kat mak aku. aku nak senangkan hidup mak, along, angah. bukannya lagi bebankan diorang...

takde hala tuju..

aida.

2010-03-15T14:27:00.002+08:00

hari ni, aku bangun pukul 11. tu pun, pasal wan noh call. tanya soklan wiley. APEKAHJADAH? lepas tu, terus aku takleh tido. siot la ko wan. >.<

cek phone, erk, ade 2 mesej. ili dengan yan tanye pasal agenda agenda hang out dan jugak balik utp. adeh.

tapi bukan tu yang aku nak diskuskan kat sini. aku baru discover satu fact yang aku tak pernah tahu selama ni.

lepas je aku setelkan hal ngan yan n ili, aku terus mengonline sampai berape jam ntah. hish. internet itu melalaikan! [dengan ekpresi muke paling poyo]

satu fact pasal aku. setiap hari, lepas bangun tidur, tanpa mengira pukul berape pun aku terjaga, aku mesti terus pegi mandi. ntah la. maybe pasal dah habit.

so, seperti yang korang dah bace, aku tak ikut rutin aku hari ni. tiba tiba, aku rase macam nak muntah.

adeh.

kepada yang mulut busuk, mesti nak cakap aku nak muntah pasal tak tahan dengan bau badan sendiri yang belum mandi. harap maklum. tersasar tekaan anda. aku still bau seperti seorang bayi yang pakai bedak carrie junior, ok.

so persoalannya, kenapa eh aku rase nak muntah? pasal aku lari dari habit aku ke, ataupun keracunan makanan ke, ataupun ape?

konfius,

aida.

2010-03-13T15:53:00.002+08:00

i was watching juno just now. and then, there comes the part when juno and her stepmom arguing where her brenda said, "ohh GO FLY A KITE!" (note: she's angry, okay!)

and then i realize.. APEKKKK!! AKU TAK DAFTAR UNTUK CHINESE KITE FLYING COMPETITION LAGI!!!

2010-03-12T03:42:00.003+08:00

rabu

tengah separuh nyawa siapkan lab report fizik yang panjang nak mampus. procedure je 3 muka.

tiba tiba..

"Aida.. tolong edit flyers untuk sports fiesta ni, boleh? by the way, nak dalam size a4 tau"

emm.. fikir lama sikit. takpe la. dia ni ada test esok hari. kesian pulak. aku tinggal lab report ni je pun.

"ok la. takde hal"

"thanks!"

aku pun cuba cuba edit flyers tu. errr. pengakuan ni. seumur hidup aku, aku tak pernah pun bukak microsoft office publisher ni. takpe lah. cuba.

1 jam kemudian..

tak reti aku nak edit edit ni. berbekalkan semangat malaysia boleh, aku buat je yang baru. bangga jugak la first flyers yang aku buat dah siap.

okay, the other person dalam conversation ni, orang lain tau.

"ehh! AIDA! flyers nak saiz yang kecik kecik tu laaa. bukan dalam size a4 ni."

"errr. aku taktau. aku terima arahan jee"

"alamakk.. camne ni eh. ahhh. yang ni pun edit balik. haa. yang ni pun. ish. kejap eh." (pensel diambil. hasil masterpiece aku berconteng contengan lepas 7 minit.)

tarik muka. lab report aku tak siap lagi ni tau tak? =_='

10 minit kemudian..

aku ni dah la first time bukak microsoft office publisher. mane la aku nak tau macam mana nak tukar design A4 untuk fit dalam size business card.. >.<

takpe la.. buat nanti.. lab report dulu..

khamis

baru sampai rumah lepas perjalan lebih 3 jam. esok nak kena bangun pagi. pergi klinik. eh. alamak. nanti nak kene edit flyers tu.

1.55am

buat la sekejap. kali ni, semangat berkobar kobar. nak explore publisher kononnya.

3.30am

muke penuh kesungguhan buat flyers.

tiba tiba..

-----new email----- (dari project manager; kepada semua committee)

UTP SPORTS FIESTA -----> UTP SPORTS AND REACREATIONS (name baru)

"WHERE THE EXCITEMENT MEETS" (tema remain yg lame)

aku attached skali logo baru..(just tukar name je pun)

roadshow jadi..23,24march..selasa rabu

mase roadshow nnt kite juz prepare newsflash (saiz A4) (cnp buat mase balik jumaat awal mggu depan or sabtu)

flyers tak perlu buat

so hope korang balik awal hari jumaat n family day pangkor tak jd sbb ramai tak leh join n kite sgt singkat mase

lepas event kite pegi ye adik2

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

tergamam.. flyers takyah buat?.. flyers takyah buat????? FLYERS TAKYAH BUAT????????????

bab^^%$*@^#*@*(!(!)@)#*#!!!!!

2010-03-12T01:23:00.002+08:00

is it weird of i said that i loves to write because i love to see my favorite font; trebuchet in action.

okay, enough crapping. by the way, I MISS WRITING FOR NO REASON REAL BAD! :( and now, i'm really thankful that i can take a rest from writing lab reports, memos, any other nuisances that i have to done while i'm in college. thank god thank god thank god. i miss these feelings of overexcited whenever i reach my home.

and i'm absolutely agree when people says that when you rarely get home, you'll be more appreciative of your holiday. and here i am. absolutely delighted and overjoyed when i reach my home just now.

okay. that's all. i don't really have something to share. later perhaps.

nite world,

me.

2010-03-07T04:46:00.003+08:00

conformity or be your self?

which one will you choose?

conformity- is it uncool to follow conformity? trying to adapt to your current society and try to fit in. is it wrong? i'm not suggesting you to sacrifice your sometimes pretentious life's principle but; isn't it great if we could sometimes lower our towering ego and try to be someone who is acceptable by the society and respected. but conformity is great unless we are trying to hard to be someone we not; thus sacrificing our own self and sell out.

be your self- it's a common thing. just count how many movies, songs, books and any other mediums to promote being our own self. but have we ever wonder. we wanna be ourselves but did OURSELVES good enough to be presented to others? and there's a problem when a snob or a whore thinks that they are so great that they choose to stand on this principle and thus become a pain in the ass for people's around them.

just a reflection for me and those who read this. i'm not good enough, heck, no one did. so choose wisely. something that have always been promoted not necessarily be the best choice.

2010-03-06T02:22:00.004+08:00

haa. benda ni la yang buat aku tak duduk diam since 2 minggu lepas. kepada bloggers bloggers yang teringin nak join, takde hal pasal UTP POWER CHALLENGE, OUTDOOR CARNIVAL, SUKAN RAKYAT semuanya terbuka. so no worries. nak promote kat kawan kawan pun boleh. :D kalau ada apa apa questions pasal event event yang korang interested, boleh leave komen.[aku copy bulat bulat dari blog KELAB KEMBARA UTP.]

UTP Sports Fiesta (UTPSF) adalah acara di bawah kerjasama Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar UTP (MPPUTP), Kelab Kembara dan Rekreasi UTP (KKRUTP) dan Sekreteriat Rakan Muda UTP (SRMUTP) serta mendapat sokongan dari Jabatan Perkhidmatan dan Sokongan Pelajar UTP (JPSPUTP). Terdapat 3 acara yang berlangsung pada 26hb-28hb Mac 2010 di bawah acara UTP Sports Fiesta:

1) UTP Power Challenge (click here for more info)
Acara ini dianjurkan oleh Kelab Kembara dan Rekreasi UTP (KKRUTP) yang berlandaskan konsep “Eco-Challenge” Acara ini melibatkan pelajar-pelajar dari Insititut Pengajian Tinggi dan juga menyediakan kategori “Terbuka” kepada peserta-peserta yang berminat.

2) Outdoor Carnival 2010 (click here for more info)
Kelab Kembara dan Rekreasi UTP (KKRUTP) juga menjalankan acara Outdoor Carnival 2010 (OC’10) dengan kerjasama Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar UTP (MPPUTP). Aktiviti-aktiviti yang disediakan seperti kayak, memanah, menunggang kuda dan “boat cycle” di mana kesemua aktiviti tertumpu di “Tasik Utama UTP” dan bakal dikunjungi oleh pelajar UTP, pelajar sekolah disekitar daerah Perak Tengah dan pengunjung sekitar Tronoh dan Seri Iskandar. Acara paling menarik yang harus dicuba adalah “Orbing” seperti gambar di bawah.

3) Karnival Sukan Rakyat
Acara ini dianjurkan oleh Sekreteriat Rakan Muda UTP (SRMUTP) dimana karnival ini bertujuan untuk mendedahkan permainan tradisional khususnya kepada pelajar asing di UTP dan juga kepada pengunjung yang datang.

2010-03-02T17:07:00.002+08:00

entah kenapa lately ni selalu sangat teringat ayah. rindu sangat sangat. dah takde tempat nak manja manja. ala. macam la tak pernah manja manja dengan mak. tapi entah lah. tak cukup rasanya. nak ayah jugak. haa. tu lah. dulu waktu ada, tanak hargai. take for granted. takde usaha nak tunjuk kasih sayang. cuma dulu rasa fun pasal ayah macam kawan. savior yang terhebat. sampaikan aku pernah buat standard untuk seseorang lelaki tu jadi suami, dia mesti berani and tabah macam ayah.

ayah tu orangnya unik. kerja pun tak hebat macam ayah orang lain. kerja dengan alam flora je. belajar pun tak tinggi. tapi itulah yang uniknya. ayah tanak kami adik beradik warisi kesusahan yang dia dah hadapi. penat dia kerja. hari hari kerja tengah panas. tak cukup dengan tu, amek overtime, kerja kerja kat rumah orang pulak. untuk apa? nak sekolahkan kami juga.

hari hari dia belikan suratkhabar. tanak kami buta dengan perkembangan dunia. nak kami tahu apa yang jadi. nak kami jadi pelajar yang aktif dalam kelas. angkat tangan tanda tahu. ayah lah yang buat aku sangat suka membaca.

haa. kan aku cakap. ayah kerja dengan alam flora. teringat pula. dulu, ayah pernah ambil sampah kat satu international school kat kl. kebetulan ayah terjumpa satu peta dunia. BESAR. ayah bawak balik rumah pasal benda tu pun still okay lagi. aku suka sangat tengok peta dunia tu.

nak pergi spain, japan, hee. macam macam lagi. entah la. rasa excited bila tengok peta tu.

ayah juga boleh tahan bila dia garang. tapi kan. masa along graduate kat UUM, masa tu yang kitorang semua paling tak boleh lupa. ayah yang nampak macam kental gila tu, boleh menangis pasal terharu seorang anak dia dah lepas dah belajar. dah jadi orang berguna..

tapi sayang sangat.. aku tak sempat nak hadiahkan kat ayah kejayaan aku. tapi mak pernah cakap. takpe, ayah tahu ida dapat cemerlang tu. aku harap sangat apa yang mak cakap tu betul.

em. sorry ayah. i really miss you right now.. may Allah bless your soul. amin.

Md Nor b Abu Bakar (1952-2004)

2010-03-01T16:52:00.003+08:00

no more out my dear. you have to walk less if you want to heal. just a few more days and you'll be better. insyaAllah. i'm thankful for the leg that i once had; that able me to walk, to cycle and to run. hope i'll be better soon. :)

2010-03-01T16:44:00.002+08:00

i don't try to be someone who forget their root and their mother's tongue by writing in english. i just want to improve my language. that's all. sorry if anyone got a problem with this. i'm not forcing you to keep on reading. peace.

2010-02-27T16:09:00.002+08:00

hah! nak sangat menulis. kan dah kene jadi secretary untuk semua benda yang ko join!

=_='

2010-02-25T19:54:00.004+08:00

i had so much fun cycling today. releasing tension with my fellow friends. i'm tired, but what's important, i've done something recreational today. this week, i'm barely out of my room for my leisure time. my precious times were spent on assignment, assignments, assignments and more. ah. don't forget the quiz.

speaking bout the quiz, em, unfortunate enough, with small effort i spent on calculus, i know that i deserve such trouble while answering it. oh well, at least i know i have to spent my time equally on every subject right?

enough bout my study.

actually, the real plan for today was buying a bicycle. huh. looking at the bicycle on sell, i don't have to think long to cancel my plan.

so i just rent them for a while. it's so much better than buying it. after that, we make our move to UTP's main lake. cycling around. my friends thought me how to use the gear. okay. you can laugh now. :P

we were playing kite for a while. the wind is not giving a good cooperation to us. so, we choose to cycle around the lake. the idea of falling from the bike and end up in the lake is definitely not on my schedule for today. :P

oh. by the way, i really admire the new hot stuff on my cafe now. err, hot is not suitable for it. the new freshly-made watermelon blended. :D

refreshed,

me.

2010-02-25T01:14:00.002+08:00

25th February 2010

i can't wait for it to end. i don't know.

-due for online assignment (chemistry)

-due for writing assignment (chemistry) [yeah, I KNOW! 2 assignment for chemistry ONLY?? watafak]

-calculus quiz

-due for physics lab report

thank god i had finished the assignments earlier (though my mark for the online assignment quiz sucks)

and to my disbelief, i had also done the writing assignment by my own self. no copying this time, except for 1 question. hehe ;) )

i also managed to finish the lab report. and all that's left is the quiz. i need to study.

but i'm too tired.

wanna know something? i'm starting to be more committed in my study. no more fooling around. ahh. not really. but now i know, how it feels like when you done your work by yourself and not dependent on other people and waiting to copy their answer. it's the best feeling in the world! =) hahahaha. [JUDGE ME!]

that's definitely one of the reason why i don't update my blog for quite some time. i also lost my writing ability. it's not that i'm not trying to updating, but i'm stuck in front of my laptop everytime i open my dashboard. i don't know what to write and at the same time, my head filled with so many events and meetings that i need to attend to.

i'm not being an asshole around here by saying that "I'M BUSY!". don't get me wrong. i'm not bragging, ok!

this is the time when i start to regret joining the KEMBARIANS and SRMUTP.

i haven't been a member for both club for a long time, but my involvement in them is much more comparing with my days as the student in the 1st and 2nd sem. hell yeah! i'm as lazy as a cow back then.

i'm not entering any club when my other friend, excitedly joining events and recruitment drive around UTP. stupid aren't i? =_='

when other foundation 3rd sem students busy studying for the our hardest subjects for our foundation years, i'm getting involved in events around UTP.

i don't know..

on one side, i love the work. that why i signed for SRMUTP and KEMBARIANS on the first place.

but when its too much, i start to feel the tension..

ok. enough with this. i should prepare myself from the beginning. i can't regret with the steps i've taken.

and whatever it is, I AM REALLY PROUD TO BE APART OF SEKRETARIAT RAKAN MUDA UTP and KEMBARIANS! =) it's a great honor and i'm stupid if i let it go. go me!

tired,

me.

2010-02-09T19:01:00.003+08:00

i really wanna write

but i don't know what to write.

bout my life?

hey, everybody got their own life, their own problems

why the hell should they spend time on front of their pc's to read mine?

no logical explanation.

then?

what should i write?

about my hatred towards this world?

nahh..

i'm trying to look the glass as half full

not half empty, you dummy! ;P

but seriously

i need a vacation

i'm dying to have one.

i'm crazy in fact bout going to new places.

too bad

i'm not granted with such luck

that allows me to travel wherever i want to =(

so there it goes

i'm stuck at home

nahh..

i'm going out, not to worry bout that

but where you might ask?

mall!

doing my second favorite thing

MOVIES!! =X

unfortunately

yeah, i can spare rm12 (and below =D) for them [per day]

but do the math

i'm gonna spend like.. rm84!! =O

err.. rethink!!

shoot

what am i gonna do?

i love to go out

hanging out

why should i even bother stay at home?

my closest sis in her college

my eldest sis in her work

and my mom is working too

so there you have it

i'm alone

oh well

as long as i know

that i didn't do anything bad while i'm out

it's fine with me

hey! stop dreaming la!

i got tutorial's questions to finish.

oh well, a girl can dream. right? ;)

sincerely,

me.

2010-01-25T21:24:00.003+08:00

please read here before proceed

i just came across this post from incik super cool :D

weyh weyh

i've heard that story once

for those who didn't read it or can't find it

[somehow, i can't open the blog anymore. u shut it down ke incik super cool?]

it is basically a beautiful (yet throat itching mellow kinda) story

about expressing your feeling towards the one you like, love

hurm

i am in that position, unfortunately =(

but seriously

even when you had given such example

where the girl died because of brain tumor

hell

gives us any bullshit on how the girl died

still

a girl is a girl

to tell a man u love or like him

is highly unlikely

ever heard of "perigi cari timba?"

or literally "well find bucket?"

i don't know about the whole population of the girl

perception about this

but for me

a normal

sane

not so perky girl

i really don't know how to do this

(okay okay. i admit. i've tried twice. but not literally say i love you la. just a hint here and there :D)

apparently

girls these days are too hot (unlike me. hahaha :D)

and unfortunate enough for the boys

for those who got 'the looks'

and 'the charm'

they will make the first move

whilst

the rest of the population or i might as well said 'species'

who don't have 'the looks' and 'the charm'

and apparently don't bestowed with such courage

blame yourself!

you missed the chance dude

haha >:)

c'mon now

for me

as a girl

when you were born as a boy

and given a penis

you are also given

the guts

and 'the privilege'

to make the first move

bear in mind

huh. enough blabbering.

ttfn.

dr. love,

me.

2010-01-21T21:08:00.002+08:00

am i a bad person when i don't feel like crying

when listening to sad stories

about a very pitiful

and a very unfortunate family

whose the son of the family (which currently studying in polytechnic)

have to drink only tap water

because he didn't have any water heater

whose son

did not eat for almost 2 days

just because he couldn't afford to buy a meal

to feed himself

whose son

have to wait for PTPTN allowance

that will only be given on March

when it is months away

and the mother

have to borrow rm700 from her friends

to support his son necessities

in the polytechnic

and to make the matters worse

when he got the PTPTN later

he have to pay the rm700

to his mother's friends back

whose son

are required to leave the lecture

just because he didn't have the text book; (well, he couldn't afford it)

by the mean lecturer

am i evil

for not feeling sad at the stories of the boy and his family?

try to walk in my shoes

when your mom is the one who told you this story

which she listens

from your potential

and possibly your mom's future husband..

and the boy on the above stories

is the brother of your mom's future husband.

'sick',

me.

2010-01-21T03:04:00.002+08:00

i have talked about growing up for about 3 times this week

and this is not good. seriously

i don't really think about growing up when i'm in high school

everyday was a gift for me and everything seems great

though i may not be the most popular girl in school

and the prettiest

but thankfully

i got friends

gangs i must say

that stick together through thick and thin

duh~

what am i talking about?

this is not some kind of disney movies

this is the real life for Allah's sake!

snap out of it!

back to the main topic okay boys and girls

i don't know why i must envy those grown up girls

their life seems boring enough

but they somehow manage to makes me envy

why?

because..

they can buy anything they want

they don't have to think about how many ringgits they have in their purses

or worrying sickly about their pointer and how they perform on the last semester

or even thinking about what did the boys think when they did something silly on the last class

and not to mention

they able to go out and come home late

every night

without mom waiting and calling you every 5 minutes and ready to explode and give you a piece of her mind

haihh..

growing up IS tough

don't blame me =D

sincerely,

dummy.

2010-01-19T22:18:00.002+08:00

i wonder why

most of my friends are the rich one..

damn!

why can't they be someone normal

with the same status

same kind of house

so i won't felt left out when i'm around them

but NOOOO!!

everyone is the son and daughter of a very successful engineer, pilot and bla bla bla

well then

maybe i'm just jealous with them

maybe

shit!

I SAIDDDDD MAYBE!!

fine!

ok!

i am jealous

well.

who wouldn't?

especially when you're someone who:

-really loves to travel! <3<3<3>

-crazy about gadgets and sneakers and backpacks!

and to make the matters worse

your friends

happen to be

someone who:

-heavy butt (literally, bontot berat. susah nak bawak berjalan. =p=p)

-prefer to spend their money on buying the MOST EXPENSIVE beauty products (janji dapat cuci muke dah laa =p)

what a waste..

ok. enough with this crap.

footnote: i'm truly am sorry if i had offend anyone by the previous post.. errr... and any other post too. sorry with the bad words.

2010-01-19T12:15:00.002+08:00

yesterday might have make me smile

but yesterday also makes one of my friend cry

girl

i couldn't say much

both of you are my friends

i can't possibly be bias when you both want my opinion..

just bear in mind

life is something we need to appreciate

and to end your life

for one boy

that might not necessarily be your husband

well

for me

it's just plain stupid..

boy

i don't know much about your side

but i think

i could understand what hinder you

from introducing her to your parents

and i must say

i'm on your side bout this one

i don't know what happen now

i just hope

both of you will end up well.. =(

2010-01-19T02:44:00.003+08:00

i'm officially gave up on love..

the one that wants me, had gave up, and i don't blame him

i'm the one to blame

i had break the promise i made to myself

i tried to create a 'new' him

i want him to play football

play the guitar

oh well

he did play football

and guitar for god's sake!

but it's not his passion..

the one i chase

i don't even know what's his status

or considering the fact

whether he had someone else in his heart

err..

i always wish his heart is mine

stupid!

=_="

i had lower down my ego

which is sooooo not me!

i do feel stupid right now.

well, i made a new vow

to forget and to stop making moves

whatever

'cause by now

i had gave up on love!

for good..

sincerely,

me.

i think i'm in love :)

2010-01-03T12:31:00.006+08:00

if u're haunted by his face whenever u're asleep at night

and think you hear his silly voice just calling out your name

just can't help but talk about him in every conversation

till your friends are sick and tired of that same old crap

oh, no! i think i'm in love with you

oh, no! i'm hoping you'll want me to

so please, don't let me down

-mocca

bad day

2009-11-30T00:53:00.002+08:00

pukul 3.30 tadi, along kena jadi driver pulak untuk semua orang. hantar angah kat KTM, hantar aku kat pudu, n last but least, hantar mak pegi kerja. sian along. THANKS btw. :D

so aku sampai pudu dalam pukul 4.30. akak tu kate, ade satu je tempat kosong untuk bas pukul 5. aku pun bolayan je la. ok la tu.

and so, aku pun turun la platform 3 untuk bas bas PLUSLINER. aku punya la sabar menanti bas aku. ramai pulak kat bawah ni. heh.

ade la satu couple kat platform sebelah. kebetulan aku betul betul menghadap diorang. uishhh. masyuk gile. orang punya ramai. si awek pun peluk tanak lepas jantan tu. haha. sape la ambik oi. muke macam mafia. cium cium bagai. pergh. syok pulak cuci mata. mwahahha

tapi serius. mane bas aku ni???

tetiba aku nampak kat kepala platform tu, ade satu bas PLUSLINER yang nak depart da. ish. kenapa pulak kat situ?? bukan kot

aku pun buat bodo. okehh. sambung layan cite lucah depan mate. hahaha.

tetibe ade akak PLUSLINER ni. aku suspek macam indon. cek tiket orang. aku tunjuk la aku punya.

"ehhh!! bas lumut pukul 5??? dah lepas la!"

"HA???!!"

"TAK DENGAR KE ORANG PANGGIL TADI??!! ISH"

[eleh. gelabah la tu. macam la tak boleh cakap baik baik. siot]

sah indon. perangai macam sial.

celaka. sumpah aku tak dengar diorang panggil. lagi satu. pejadahnye dia tunggu orang kat kepala platform. nasib la boleh guna tiket tu untuk next trip. tu pun kena tunggu kalau ade kosong. siot.

oh ya. handset angah yang baru repair and kene dalam 100++, boleh kena cilok mase angah dalam KTM. err. tu yang mak cakap la. haish. tak selamat la ko wahai incik penyeluk saku.

najwa pulak terlepas bas terengganu-sri iskandar. pergh. dugaan lagi besar dari aku. =_="

semoga esok lebih baik. :)

antara dua darjat..

2009-11-25T22:36:00.005+08:00

okey. aku nak share satu cerita ngan korang. an opinion is REALLY appreciated. (cerita ni about a really good friend of mine. i really wanna get ur opinion about this topic.)

situasi: si gadis ni my bestfriend kat UTP. si teruna pulak seorang pelajar di sebuah kolej matrikulasi.

si gadis ni ade background family yang bagus la. ade adik beradik dia yang belajar kat oversea and alhamdulillah, semua dah berjaya, tinggal dia masih sambung belajar dan dia sendiri seorang scholar PETRONAS. (aku pun tak layak weh. :D)

si teruna ni aku taklah kenal sangat. aku just kenal dia sebagai pakwe kawan aku ni. tapi, menilai dari ape yang aku selalu dengar, si teruna ni family nya sederhana je la. biasa biasa je. lebih kurang macam family aku. errr.. basically, normal:)

so, everything went well. sampai la satu hari ni, si teruna bagitahu si gadis yang dia dah dapat result untuk exam dia. and unfortunately, dia dapat rendah..

first time dapat tahu result si teruna, si gadis rasa terkejut. tak sangka tu je markah yang si teruna dapat.. si gadis rasa kecewa ngan si teruna. terlintas perasaan jahat dalam hati si gadis. one word.. BREAKUP. tapi lepas dia tersedar dari lintasan jahat tu, dia tahu yang si teruna dah belajar sungguh sungguh, struggle untuk exam. tapi hasil nya sangat mengecewakan. sekarang ni, ade kemungkinan yang si teruna akan dibuang dari matrix.

berkali kali si gadis cuba telefon, tapi si teruna langsung tak mahu angkat. rasanya, aku faham perasaan si teruna..

pandangan aku: jujurnya, aku agak kecewa ngan si gadis.. bukan apa, tapi dia tak sepatutnya rasa kecewa ngan ape yang dah jadi. lagipun, bila aku nilai balik yang si gadis ni pun dikelilingi oleh orang orang yang berjaya dalam hidup, mungkin dia terlepas pandang realiti kehidupan. bukan semua orang akan end up kat universiti, jadi pelajar cemerlang. setiap orang ada kelebihan sendiri. semua orang dah ada takdir sendiri. gagal dalam exam bukan bermakna gagal dalam hidup. kan?.. tapi aku tahu yang dia rase menyesal. ala, no one is perfect kan? same goes to me.:)

p/s: aku rasa bersalah sangat sebab terpaksa tinggalkan kawan aku dalam keadaan menangis sebab perkara tu. i hope she'll be strong.. and so is the boy.

PE class project!!! (Down to Earth '09)

2009-11-22T17:55:00.003+08:00

untuk sem 2, kitorang kena ambil subjek Islamic Studies. one of our assignment is kitorang kena buat macam aktiviti amal la. kutip derma ke, bersihkan kubur ke, ape ape je la. budak budak petroleum engineering da decide untuk buat lawatan pegi umah anak anak yatim kat chemor, perak.

21 november 2009

6.00 am- tak pernah pernah aku bangun awal pagi macam ni and terus mandi. semua pasal takut datang lambat. takut kang terlepas bas pulak. heh. so, dalam pukul 7.05, kitorang gerak untuk pegi masjid (tempat perjumpaan).

7.20 am- biasalah. papehal, kene la tangkap gamba dulu. *snap* :D

zurin, fiqo, ili, mira, esah

(muke aku pelik. haha)

[latar belakang: masjid annur UTP]

aku, fiqo, mira, ili, chan

[latar belakang: masjid annur gak]

tanpa membuang masa sungguh kami ni. hehe. ustazah tak sampai lagi, kitorang mesti la amek kesempatan. huhu. sebelum naik bas, ade sesi briefing dari ustazah. jaga adab. nak ziarah tempat orang ni. huhu

hoh. dalam bas. on da way nak ke chemor.

(sory la muke sengal pepagi. huahua)

9.45 am- pehh. lame gile nak sampai chemor ni ha. pagi tu pulak, hujan renyai renyai. adoyai. tengkujuh betol la. hahaha. sampai kat umah anak yatim budi mulia, sesi dimulakan dengan tangkap gamba lagi. mwahahah. *SNAP!*

esah, aku, ili, fiqo, chan, mira, zureen, syaza.

(baru aku pasan, sume buat peace. hahaha. takde trademark laen da. ekeke)

tanpa berlengah, lepas da set up semua barang, majlis perasmian la dulu. hehe. [sesi aku dicapubkan. mwahaha]. kurang sket gemuruh pasal tak formal sangat. tapi aku main hentam je. sape suruh memandai jadikan aku emcee??!! mwahahahah

rahimi, aku. haaa.. gamba ustazah masyitah pun ade haa. ehehe.

lepas perasmian, sesi bahagi bahagikan kumpulan. kenal kenal. reka nama kumpulan. haaa! kena reka trademark skali! huhu. tak semua kumpulan la ekk yang aku dpt upload. hehe. abang2 and kakak2 faci, jalankan tanggungjawab!! huhuh

hoh. kumpulan ni name dye 'budak baik'. konfem ke baik?? wakaka

sesi nak present pulak, ade la yang malu malu. abang kakak faci pun kene join bebudak ni buat sekali! haha. best betol faci kene buli.

ni kumpulan choki choki. ye, dyorg tnjuk choki2 sekalik! sudahnye, lepas tu sume bebudak mintak choki2 kat kitorg. masalahnye faci kumpulan ni yg bagi. hahaha. mane la nak carik adik oii

macam macam acara la gak lepas tu. ade yang ikut plan, ade yang tak. sesi pagi punye aktiviti pun abes. wlaupun keadaan agak hujan, tapi sume masih bertahan. cume ade la outdoor games yang tak dapat nak di buat.

1 pm - rehat. time ni solat zohor jemaah. tapi asing la laki pempuan. lepas semayang, berkumpul balik, untuk sesi amali solat. haaaa. tengok budak ni. insap skit! hahaha

comey kan?! name budak ni kimi. haha. dye tunjuk care solat dalam keadaan paling kiut sekali. ehehehe

lepas amali solat, lunch plak. makan sama sama ngan budak budak ni sume. sambil borak borak. kenal kenal sikit. haaa. ade la yang jadi abang angkat, kakak angkat untuk bebudak ni sume. bak kata ustazah, ambil nombor diorang, nanti balik boleh tepon tepon. men mesej ke. haha.

lepas makan, sesi game outdoor. hujan da berenti. so, jom la keluar! huhu. ade la beberapa gem yang da disiapkan untuk diorang ni. haaaa. siap ade tepung. erm. kalau da ade tepung tu, jangan cakap la. tak sah kalau takde yang kena. ustazah pun jadi mangsa. hahaha. gampang betol. yang pastinya, kitorang sume lagi lebih lebih main tepung dari diorang. hahaha. baik la buat cekodok ke. membazir betol

huru hara jadinya bile da main game outdoor. tapi aku lagi suke time outdoor. takde la bosan sangat. good job guys! hehe.

pukul 4.30 pm- semua kene panggil masuk balik. lagipun, masa tu da nak hujan. so, sesi penutup mula lagi awal. ucapan, hadiah untuk semua group. ala. takde yang kalah. jangan risau. hamper tu sume sama, dik. pecayalah!. akak da tengok. main hentam je bagi award. kumpulan paling kreatif la, paling comel la, paling semangat. suke suke ati aku je. hahaha.

lepas semayang asar bejemaah, sume da siap nak gerak. ade la refeshment skit. sesi bebudak ni mintak no tepon. yang bagi no tepon. same je. hahaha. mak dah tu ko tak mintak pulak? ahah. ok2. haaaa. ni la gamba kami!

yang menjayakan DTE utk PE class '09. thanks all!!

huhu. selamat pun. overall, ok la. maaf gak la ye kalau ade tesalah, tekurang. hehe. erm. btw, masa balik tu kitorang naik van. heh. memang la tak best pasal tak dapat naik bas. tapi!!!! misi kitorang berjaya untuk pujuk pakcik driver tu bawak kitorang gi McD. hahaha. rupenye pasal pakcik tu pun nak beli gak. wakakaka. dye beli lagi banyak. bagus betol. i lap u, pakcik!!!

p/s: kalau pujuk lagi skit semalam, memang dapat pegi tengok wayang kat ipoh la. hahahahaha.

perasaan yang tak sedap

2009-11-20T15:19:00.005+08:00

(tajuk post ni takde kene mengena dengan ape ape jenis masakan. serius.)

sekarang jam pukul 3.30 pm. hari jumaat.. =_="..

aku kena balik UTP hari ni.. tanak weh.. serius tanak. aku takde mood langsung. aku rase nak nangis, nak muntah, nak marah. aku taktawu la. serba tak kena.. (ni takde unsur unsur hiperbola. betul! pecayalahhhh)

macam benda tak best je nak jadi. alahai... kenapalah Down-To-Earth untuk bebudak course aku kena dibuat esok? dah la paling lambat antara semua course.. haishh. buat aku punye keikhlasan nak menziarah anak anak yatim tu berkurang taw! takpe takpe.. sabar... isk isk

dah la. aku kena gerak kot skang. waaaaa. malasnye nak pegi pudu yang terchenta tu. naik LRT la. jalan kaki la. woii. da la nak ujan ni. =_=".

*padan muke, sape suruh ko gerak petang petang? kan mak dah kate. skang ni musim tengkujuh. amek ko!*

agak lahanat gak hari ni. takpe la. aku nak blah

seekor sloth..

2009-11-18T22:34:00.004+08:00

erm.. assalamualaikumm...

pernah kah kamu mendengar tentang seekor makhluk ciptaan tuhan yang diberi nama sloth?.. (sory. aku tak taw nama melayunye. :D)

ni la makhluk berkenaan.

okey. kenapa aku mesti aku bercakap tentang makhluk ini?

jawapannya:

aku rase aku da mula jadi macam makhluk berkenaan..

*shit* =_="

kenapa aku rase macam seekor sloth?

jawapannya, AKU BENCI MID SEM BREAK!

-takde ape nak buat. nak keluar budak budak ni plak takde. nak keluar pun takde mood.. :(( *pathethic*

-kena balik awal.. cuti habis hari ahad, tapi kena balik hari jumaat due to DTE. ok2. keep in mind that it is for good cause. but still.. kenapa tak hari lain?? takleh aku nak straight cuti sampai raya haji.

in a nutshell, SUCKS.

sekian..

sekarang..

2009-11-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

seriously.. sangat sejukk..[menggeletarr..]

well, sabtu yang hujan di KL. erm. baru cuti. lepak ah dulu. esok sambung keluar. haha.

well, ingat nak pegi tengok 2012. yeah. memang suke world destruction. tapi, baru sahaja aku baca review si itek yan tentang filem berkenaan, terus kensel la. ceh. nak tengok watpe lagi. hari tu dah tengok TSUNAMI AT HEUNDAE (da lupe ejaan dia). takkan nak tengok sume cerita yang same. o well, seems like the so-called-paling-creative punya showbiz pun da run out of ideas. biarlah.

seminggu ni takde la cuti sangat. programming bhai. nak study. :O

okey.. tak lawak.

seriously, aida rozaini kena belajar. gelak la. aku da cukup tension da dengan result sem 1. so untuk sem 2, kena la belajar. takleh nak wat apa la. huh

ok la. nak sambung men gem [erk]

hhahaha

bubyee:D

pemalas

2009-10-18T14:47:00.004+08:00

siapa manusia paling malas dalam bumi?. AIDA!. yeayy. =_="

nak kata takde internet, penipu betol. tapi ape sebabnye, blog ni bersawang??

jujurnya, aku pun tak tahu kenapa.

okeh. first thing first.

aku da suke main facebook yang dulu aku kutuk. ironi. haha.

second.

-sem 2 dah start. best memang best. kelas budak Petroleum Engineering sama dengan bebudak Information and communication technology (ICT) and also bebudak Civil Engineering (CV). so, kitorang makin rapat la. aku, aishah, najwa, ciput termasuk dida ngan key skali. duk selalu sama sama tapi nak pegi kuliah, jarang sama2 pasal aku selalu bangun lewat. XDXD. ape da. macam tamo belaja je. heh

-thinking skills, programming.. =_=".. kenapa kene belaja sume benda alah ni?

third

-aku sangap yahoo chat

-OMG!

fourth

-kena mula berjimat cermat. duit mula dilanda kepupusan. adoi!

-aida punya angkara-

2009-09-17T14:18:00.003+08:00

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. aida
2. moly [name kat skola, k! xde maknenye aku nk sesuke ati pakai nama ni. ahaks]
3. yangg [ayang ayang sume je panggil cmnih. huhu]

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE: (currently)
1. 31st may 1991
2. 28th september 2004 [ayah passed away]
3.

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. solat zoho
2. blogwalking
3. menyanyi. [party in the USA] XDXD

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY EVEN IF YOU'RE STUCK AT HOME:
1. online [including ym, blog and laen laen social networking.. huhu]
2. borak ngan angah [kalau dia ade kat umah laa]
3. tepon sayangs.. XDXD

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. hurm.. pointer 3.3?? ekekeke [and above laa]
2. at least 10 pairs of sneakers [everlast, vans, converse and B.U.M eq]
3. a tix to go to anfield to watch liverpool play. sume nye disupport! mwahahha

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. tengok wayang [ye, saye juga moviemaniac.. ahaks]
2. jalan jalan [ngan memembe la]
3. baca quran [jangan gelak!!]

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. kuala sanglang, perlis.. XDXD
2. pulau perhentian.. [lalala~]
3. ala. sume tempat yange ade pantai la. [ye, saya suka pantai]

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. air kosong sejuk
2. air buah buahan la. tak kesah [sejuk gak]
3. horlick ais [XDXD]

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG: (other than the usual wallet, keys and HP)
1. bedak baby johnson.. huhu
2. tisu?
3. resit resit yg berterabur

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. hijau mantol
2.merah mantol
3. cokelat

TOP THREE HANGOUTS:
1. mid
2. klcc [transport senang! huhu]
3. alpha angle wangsa maju [jalan kaki jom! ahaha]

TOP THREE YOU LOVE SO MUCH:
1. family [mak, ayah, along, angah]
2. friends [kawan2 utp, kawan2 samura, kawan2 sbp.ning, bloggers sekalian dan semua semua yang aku anggap kawan la]
3. dia..

TOP THREE WHOM YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
1. entah.
2. mane
3. tawu

TOP THREE "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. my dearest lappy
2. jam BUM aku yang telah kehilangan.. isk isk
3. sneakers and bags [bag sandang taw!]

TOP THREE THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY LATELY:
1. my friends in utp
2. my songs collection
3. him

TOP THREE TAGLINES:
1. cilabi! XDXD
2. cilakak
3. ntah la wei

TOP THREE REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1. kene tag ngan ili
2. bosan
3. taktahu laa. adeyh